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It's just me, the neon demon Dusk.
Dusk, is a demonoid (synthetic demon - in my universe demons are a bit different from actual demons). There was a story planned with him which I hope to get to someday.
I don't always thank people for watches and favorites, but I always love when it happens.
I have severe depression. Despite this, I still don't bite. I may just occasionally be sad*.
Come say hi!
*which makes people run, and fueling an endless circle I can't get out. can't make friends so I can't get better so I can't make friends. people are selfish. getting out of this depression hell isn't up to me anymore. no, "dude just have happy thoughts" or whatever people-who-don't-want-to-deal-with-it say to depressive people isn't cutting it ; when you have a broken hand, thinking of other things doesn't make the broken hand stop hurting. it is no different. you can't "just" ignore a problem and get better.
I may occasionally end up being a little down, but if you bother to get to know me a bit, you'll know i'm not an endless torrent of moping and crying, and that I can be a fun person too (yes, really, unironically, this is not a joke), but it means also accepting I may occasionally be sad sometimes.
I am not very interested in meeting "good times only" superficial people. I hate this kind of people simply because I want to be myself, not be the idealized version in their minds.
I literally have no friends, I am alone, I navigate through endless days of nothing but fog, with no hope and future. I hate myself, I hate life, I hate others, I hate the world, I wish people were nicer, I wouldn't be in a mental prison if the world was less rotten. I do not like lying, the world is rotten because of that, people can't be honest, so I strive for honesty.
I am just different. I am not sorry for my difference, but I regret people can't accept difference. I still shitpost and ironic-talk too, I shares memes too, I do everything you do, except I may also have some bad moments too.
"dude you're weak, strong people dont show that" Well, I think that being honest and open about one's emotions take more strength and courage than always wearing a pretend-mask (but neither is easy, believe it or not, I've done both for years and years).
I just stand out of the crowd for this reason, and I didn't know being unique was a bad thing.
thank you if you've read so far, which I doubt anybody ever will ; I am also lucid enough to know what attracts or deflects people. which makes me be alone. and sad.
I'll finish this by repeating that i may be occasionally sad from time to time but I can also be a fun person to be around with most of the time (MOST of the time, yes), even though i know it's probably hard to believe from my profile or reading this block of text.
Still here? I'm interested in people like you! come say hi, for real, I'd love to talk about whatever with YOU!
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