It does not matter if you know how you will make it, but that you will. It may not be a straight path but one that will lead you all over the place to good times and bad. Take them all the same and learn from them. Life is that - a journey to everywhere and to experience everything in it.
As they say in those muscle gyms, "Pain is weakness leaving the body."
When one day soon you wake up and look at the sun and smile you will understand that.
I'm glad you're OK. We are always here for you.
*HUGS* It does not matter if you know how you will make it, but that you will. It may not be a stra