Update...I guess. Make some shimejis, no one cares. No one reading this fuckery, as usual. I really do wonder why I even bother with anything. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Qav5wo0SS0 No drugs ...
even though it's been quite a while...I never felt it change. my life has been an endless loop of me just wanting to run, but there is nowhere to go. even though I'm showing signs that I need to get h...
on purpose? accidental? I may soon find out. I remember the first time I ever felt scared for my life. but it wasn't fear, it was anguish. but, it could be a feeling of freedom now. it just takes so...
I'm thinking of ending things. Once this thought arrives, it stays. it sticks, it lingers, it dominates. There's not much I can do about it, trust me. It doesn't go away. It's there whether I like it or not. It's there when I eat, when I go to bed. It's there when I sleep. It's there when I wake up. It's always there. Always.
