im REALLY depressed, my confidence in art is lower than ever, projects arent moving foward, got turned away at a date, job i was hired in turned out to be a crypto scam, cant even enjoy playing videogames anymore, just been sleeping for most afternoons.
the drama with inkbunny moderation is VERY disappointing as well. i understand people wanting to leave the site, specially with all the AI dogshit thats being spammed. having to delete dozens of pics because i didnt censor the humans _enough_ is stupid.
dont get me started on politics 💀💀💀 doomscrolling through news of the united states turning into a nazi country is scary. my own country went through that before and its still primed to become one as well.
im very sorry for not posting, in particular to all my commissioners waiting for stuff since january. im gonna need to start taking meds or something, possibly find some cbt therapy as well.
regarding art im really unhappy with my painting, im very bad at it and it soulcrushing feeling that my lineart celshaded pics from 3 years ago looked better than my current attempts at painting. plus since most shitty ai models pump out the exact same style of painting that inspires me i feel like it's a waste of time to even strive for that nowadays. nevermind how insulted i am when people assume im using it at all.
i try to avoid posting rants or anything emotional, so excuse this journal update.
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