Hello. It's Zenu. Yes I am retired. And I'll be deleting my final two galleries by months end.
So I'm not returning to porn making as I did decide to quietly retire a few years ago if that wasn't obvious by now. I'll be deleting my final two galleries; ib and pixiv by the end of this month since I have no plans on ever updating them again I'd rather just remove them and for personal reasons as well I'd rather keep to myself.
If anyone hasn't saved a copy of a commission I've done for them in the past and wants to have one feel free to rehost it on your own gallery or save it to your hard drive, whatever works for you.
I haven't had any complaints so I assume anyone who wanted to hold on to something has it already, if not they probably know where to find it elsewhere. I'm certain more than one archive of my drawings exists online. Send me a pm by months end if you're having trouble otherwise I'll assume everyone's good.
Final Goodbye and Explanation.
Before I purge these last two pages I just want to once again say a big thankyou to everyone who supported me over the years. It meant a lot. Thankyou for the kind words and well wishes and concern too.
I wanted to respond sooner and talk about what was up with me but it's been a rough few years and this post has been one I've tried to write so many times never quite sure what I wanted to say and it's been tough to find the words and thoughts.
God I sound like someone who mattered when I'm just another random porn artist giving up on the porn like so many others before me have. Like there aren't a million of them online these days haha.
Kind of feels like a right of passage though, everyone quits some time. Whether you do it in your late 20s or late 40s or whenever. I don't think anyone can maintain a life time of passion for perverse creations. Especially some of the more taboo weirder shit many of us choose to make.
As for why I quit. It can be summarized as I just don't want to do this kind of thing anymore. My passion and motivation was waning as far back as 2018 and by the time 2020 wrapped I think I was just done.
Too old, too tired, too unmotivated. Carpal tunnel, personal life problems, even some different perspective on life it all just adds up and you say yeah, yeah think I've had enough of this for forever.
I guess I could say more but I don't think it would really add anything or make anyone happier about my confirmed permanent absence from this space.
I guess to my fans, and the people who truly cared in the end I'll say, don't worry about me. I'm good. Zenu might actually be happier than ever in a very long time. I genuinely want to leave this all behind and find something else in life to put so much time and energy in to, I'm sure I'll find the answer to that eventually.
But please don't nag me for some followup local or feed or whatever to watch from, I have nothing to give you in that respect and honestly I do just want to be left alone.
So please respect my privacy and leave me be. Thankyou.
Sorry if anyone's angry or upset or doesn't understand.
But there are so many amazingly skilled people out there doing what I did, so many doing it so much better too. Surely you're following many of them too. You'll all be just fine without me or my stuff. The internet has one truth above all and that's that the porn will always be endless haha.
Best of luck to you all in whatever your life entails. Hugs and kisses.
Ex-porn maker Zenu.
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