Honestly, spoken word isn't my thing,
I can't memorize my poetry and then regurgitate it back to an audience,
And even if i could i don't know if i'd want to.
I've watched videos like Should I have A Daughter and The Crickets Have Arthritis on YouTube and I'll tell you...
It just shits all over my dreams,
It drowns them like a frog caught at the bottom of a lake.
These poets are so eloquent when they speak and their voices don't crack or shake,
And their Passion...
It burns,
It burns my ears and my eyes and my soul.
Anyone can write a few words down or draw a picture or take a shot with a camera,
But it takes a lot more to make your passion emanate from you like those poets do.
But i want to be one of those poets.
I want to be the one that's "outstanding in my field",
And gets to stand up in front of all those people and pour my heart out with my 30 minutes of fame.
But spoken word isn't my thing.
I hide behind a pen and paper or my keyboard and computer screen,
I'm too shy to even try.
My voice is weak even when i speak to my friends,
And my hands shake from simply catching the eye of another person.
I don't know if i'll ever make it to Ted,
But I'm not going to let it stop me fro continuing to write,
Because writing is the only thing that gets me through things,
And even if it doesn't,
At least i got a new poem.