I haven't let myself think about it much I usually keep myself busy keep music in my ear keep a pencil in my hand or a controller or weights. Perhaps everything is a distraction from the pain doesn't go away just dulls. I'm not crying right now at least despite how this looks haha. I miss them still, my mom and my grandpa. 2021 was and still is the worst and lowest point in my life looking back at it feels so long ago a life time. I'm so different from then it's crazy. Wish they were here to see how I've changed. Losing them didn't change my life for the better truthfully I was so bad off that i was doing drugs in 2022 my mental state was so fucked I don't know fully how I managed to claw my way out of that hole... I am better now I smile more than I ever have somehow, but I'll think about them sometimes it doesn't pull me down usually not a lot or right away but the pain is still there. I did this sketch a little while ago cause I kinda wanted to buy myself this day for me. I did shade it last night though and using my new skills I've kinda acquired throughout this month having drawn so much I've kinda taken some steps forwards in my drawing abilities which I'm proud of hehe!
Thank you all for sitting with me over the years listening to me rant looking at my doodles!
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that man... Listen, if things ever get bad again, you know you can rely on any of us, right? Even without the art, you're so charming and pleasant to talk to, I don't think anybody here or following you would want to hear about you going through something like this again.
Take all the time you need if you're feeling down, take care of yourself and your mental health first and foremost, alright? Hope you feel better soon 🫂
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that man... Listen, if things ever get bad again, you know you can rely on
Thank you so much for your kind words they mean a lot! Yes I am taking today slowly as if I am a snail and doing what will maintain my sanity. I appreciate your comments on my posts I don't always reply cause sometimes I don't have the time and am too busy but I enjoy seeing em thank you my friend!
*Thank you so much for your kind words they mean a lot! * Yes I am taking today slowly as if I am a
Ah we both share this pain! I am so sorry you had you to lose them! I was too smart for my own good back then I knew my mother wouldn't make it and when they put her on a ventilator I tried fooling myself into thinking she may get better i was delusional or perhaps delirious actually haha. I was so sick I could barely get out of bed at the time. My weight back then didn't help I'm shocked I'm still alive honestly. My blood 02 got as low as 70. Ugh enough about my nam. How did you lose them if I can ask?
Ah we both share this pain! I am so sorry you had you to lose them! I was too smart for my own good
Grandma had a stroke in the middle of the day. She was sitting in her chair and when mom went down to check on her she was already gone
Dad got sick near the end of the year and was put on a ventilator. They gave him a new drug that was suppose to help and he was getting better. Than apparently an oxygen bubble went to his heart or brain and that was it.
Grandma had a stroke in the middle of the day. She was sitting in her chair and when mom went down t
Ah I'm sorry you went through that such horrible times, I worry I may find my gram like that one day she still grieves awfully for them it was her husband and her daughter after all, she's told me she wishes it was her and not them a few times. Such a horrible thing life can be sometimes. My grandpa we thought he was getting better and might recover but he ended up going as well. I share your hurt! Hang in there Crinkle!
Ah I'm sorry you went through that such horrible times, I worry I may find my gram like that one day
