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"Sai..." Dillon said, when the caracal was about to head out. "Yeah...?" Sai replied. He didn't meet Dillon's gaze, or turn toward him. He didn't want want to be hurt again, but also was glad that Dillon wanted to talk; it gave him hope. Dillon seeing his best friend in such a state was heartbreaking... he had somehow thought that all Sai was doing was to get him socially outcasted as "gay", and yet seeing Sai like this, Dillon had been mentally kicking himself for being so egocentric. "You..." The cougar had thought a lot about what to say but now no words were coming to his mind. "I'm... sorry.." "It's okay Dillon," Sai said sullenly, and he started to head out. "Sai.. wait, please..." Dillon said, and Sai obeyed again, slowly turning with his ears down and still not meeting the puma's gaze. Dillon stepped closer to the caracal. He knew he had to offer something that he wasn't even sure of himself. "Look... like... you're my best friend... and I don't know if I'm... that way. But... like, I liked that it was with you... when we.... well, you know." Sai looked up at Dillon, saw that his ears were also down and he had the most bashful expression. "I'm sorry..." Sai also said. "I shouldn't have done something you didn't want to do." "I..." Dillon said, still unsure if he should be admitting all this. "I... did want to... And I like that you're so... confident. I just got scared is all..." "Dillon.." Sai smiled for the first time in days. His wounded heart was sore as he smiled. "I know it's not easy for you. I'm pretty sure I'm gay, and I do like you. I don't want you to do anything you don't want." "I don't know if I'm..." his words got stuck in his throat. Dillon struggled to say the word "gay" outloud, so instead he said, "... if I'm.. that way.. but I like you Sai, and I don't want to lose you as a friend." Whether it was the hope that Dillon might actually be open to a relationship with him, or that Dillon cared enough to apologize, Sai's state of depression was evaporating. "Dillon..." he said, starting to feel smitten again. "You're an amazing cat." Sai hugged his best friend tightly, and nuzzled up against him. Dillon didn't hesitate to hug his friend back... He had let out one of the biggest secrets he's ever held; that he doesn't know if he's gay or not... and hugging his best friend and mending their friendship felt amazing. He didn't hold back and let himself enjoy the hug from Sai. |
