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Kooskia

Worst “friendzoning” of my life (vent).


I cannot say to have been unlucky in my life with relationships.
Yes, I never got the luck to find a final stable partner… hopefully something that will happens in my life.
Moreover, I could say to have experienced multiple pleasures (some kinky ones too!).

It occurred to me to “friendzone” someone in my life. It is not something easy to say to someone: to drop all his/her hopes (both if we’re speaking of emotions or just sexual attraction) and even if we don’t know much this person, he/she deserve politeness and a good amount of tact.

Today I suffered a truly humiliating “Friendzoning” from a girl I know from some time.
She is younger, pretty, and we have been together: while our story ended (we shared interests especially concerning movies and literature), we kept in touch for chats, further exchange of interests (about new books and movies etc.) and occasionally some friends-with-benefit sexual fun.
With time it was clear to me she did not felt very attraction toward me.
I do not think to be poorly gifted in this side (moreover since 2 years I worked more on my body and gained some in terms of physique), the issue was she saw me more in terms of the “wise older friend” to instruct, lecture and learn things, than a fuckbuddy.

I have usually ignored some stories she told me of other fuckbuddies she met sometimes: guys she appreciated just for physique and little to zero emotions.
Then since last fall, our meetings increased in frequency: we made some more kinky games (with new stuff I discovered to appreciate) and we mutually experienced a brief rebirth of feelings (I admitted it; she said to have felt a bit too).

Then recently the big change: an older man, she consider extremely attractive due age difference. No problem I said, previously we met with her having two different fuckbuddies…
She also stressed how she feels nothing for this guy, so I was honestly more intrigued than anything else.
Yesterday however she said she wanted to see me: told me the guy was ill, and spent the evening to sexually tease and hints on me, well… more than hints considering she shared nude pics of her. Something she never did before. I did not hide to her how this made me quite excited, and told I longed to see her today.
And today… she basically stressed me on face, how she could feels no sexual thrill with me because my showing of a “teaching/instructing” side of my personality. And she spent literally 45 minutes to make sexual praises of the guy in question in face of me, ignoring my hints and plea to stop this.

It was honestly humiliating, I never experienced this.
I know some pervy furries in cuckold (who probably will read this journal) would dream for such situation, but this is not the case.
Both because I am quite dominant on a sexual point of view, and both because I cared for her… and she made the worst possible choices in telling me what was in her rights to say.

I do not think it was intentional on her side, she can be quite reckless in speaking and dialogues and I think that was the same (talking without thinking to consequences).

My journal would like to be a message to fellow furries that if you will ever ends in a situation when you needs to deny feelings or sexual attraction to someone else…
Please CONSIDER their feelings: honesty is right, but consider you’re talking with someone who love you or sexually desire you and even if it is your rights to say “sorry I don’t feels the same”, you’ve to respect such person.
  
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Added: 7 years, 1 month ago
 
AlexanderValentine
7 years, 1 month ago
*offers a kittyhug* that's just horrible. That wasn't a friendzoning. That was more of a slap to the face to you. Sounds to me this person is a 'User' someone who goes from person to person, using them until they get bored with them, tossing them aside after they're done.

I know how that feels, and it is the worst thing to ever suffer. If I can offer a hand, I would love to talk to you privately, and help you out.
Kooskia
7 years, 1 month ago
thanks ^^
I would love too. I have the same nickname on telegram (with my canine avatar) or skype.
Generally speaking I love to chat with new folk,  I am quite quick to recover from these things, so my "depressed-time" rarely last more than a couple of days...

My point was also to show and spread and tell folk to never behave in such way...
The only thing I would say honesty it's that I don't think it was intentional.
But one should stop being reckless and think about consequences of actions and words, past 20years...
 
AlexanderValentine
7 years, 1 month ago
Some people don't learn how to think before they act, and even then people do slip up. But it doesn't matter if you're past 20 or over 60. There is no reason to cause grief in this life. Instead, you should find peace even if others try to disturb it.

*hugs tighter*
Kooskia
7 years, 1 month ago
Thanks again, I reply you here too beceause after all this was a public journal.
As I hoped she apologized and as I guessed she let underestimate the effect certain arousal talks and pics from her had to me (eh!) and admitted she got carried on while talking due her thrill.
While these are not excuses, she apologized and for that I am fine, but as you said age sadly is not good mark for maturity...

And it happens to say or express things we later regret or we are not aware of hurting people...
That's why it is better being careful and thinks a bit at the other's feelings...
Meowz
7 years, 1 month ago
I will always be straightforward and honest whim whim I share beds. But first, I have to be in that situation again. And it's been ages ...

Sorry about your bad situation. ;(
Kooskia
7 years, 1 month ago
To be honest there are times when you seriously think if it is really worth...
An orgasm? Quite easy to do it youself..
Main pro it's the ego boost/satisfaction/awareness of having that sexual experience or sexual partner.
I hope you will find a partner and pleasure in life, Meowz, don't stress yourself on it and keep eyes open and dare to
when you wish to say something.


Said this, she apologized and while I am far from happy or relieved from what happened. Forgiving and be at peace it's a first step.
Seti
7 years, 1 month ago
it happens sometimes.... thought the way she did that - was very bad
Kooskia
7 years, 1 month ago
The fact she was not aware and not thinking how that was affecting me, is one reason why I said we can still talk and chat.
It happens so many times to see people hurt to then reject and block other people (irl and on internet) when after talking you may discover how it was not intentional.
Still it may hurt and it is not an excuse, but it can keep open a window for a forgiving and making up.
DracoBlader96
7 years, 1 month ago
dang dude that really sucks. can't say that has happened to me, but I have been hurt by and ex-gf (who i was only dating for a couple months) say she was willing to try a long distance relationship, but than dumped me for some guy who lived in the same city as here. and she did this after i asked her if she wanted to end the relationship instead of trying to do a long distance one. @____@ it just blindsided me.
Kooskia
7 years, 1 month ago
thanks man. I have mostly recovered (I am quick on doing it), and she aplogized ..
Sorry also for your issue, matters are a bit different I think (your story seems more emotional-leaning, mine is less emotional).
It seems to me she has been a bit rushed in doing this, maybe she could have talked you better...

My opinions are a bit biased however, because I honestly believe long-distance relationships have little chances.
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