Having friends that don't talk to you or won't respond to your texts/messages.
There's nothing that makes me think about something longer than I should, or even bring my piss to an absolute boil than when I try and chat with someone and I either get no response (despite their Skype or whatnot saying they're online) or short one or two word responses.
To me, it's like, "Listen, if you don't wanna hang out or be my friend anymore, just let me know and that'll be that. Stop pussyfooting around and hurting me in the process, 'cause you're just harming me by not being honest and telling me anything." And if there's one thing I treasure in a person, it's honesty.
Now, there are some great people who I met on this site and I chat with over Skype that I am very grateful to have met and I still keep in contact with on a consistent basis. And I do understand why some people have stopped chatting with me, with issues ranging from work hours and depression. Trust me, I understand that. But at the same time, it's been months since I've heard those reasons for abandoning me, with either very limited or no contact ever since that...I don't know.
I mean, is it me? Is it the way I act? The way I talk? My voice? My ethnicity? Am I too clingy? Too annoying?
In any case, part of me is just thinking about removing or blacklisting the people who don't chat with me anymore, mostly to start fresh and to try to get both them and the memories out of my mind--something of a hiatus, if you will. But for now, I don't know.
Who knows? Maybe I'm taking this a bit too far and acting like a whiny little bitch, but it's just something that I've been meaning to get off my chest for a while now, because it's something I'm worried about and it makes my morale low and depression high as fuck.
And trust me, after a long and strenuous day of doing a fuckton of personal work and dealing with my shitty father and his equally shitty wife, the last thing I wanna deal with is getting blown off by my friends.
In any case, sorry 'bout the long and bitchy rant. Expect a more positive post in the next couple of days.
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