Zeta here again, it's been a month since the last journal... and I just realized how my journals became monthly, when back then they were more of a weekly thing, hm...
I felt like I should keep in touch with you all, so you know what's going on, which is usually what happens in my life update journals (derp).
I have a big announcement to make soon, but that will be in a future journal, I just wanted to mention this beforehand.
I feel like the month of september, to me, was a tiring battle with my own sleep routine and nutrition x_x It was like my mind couldn't focus on the laptop screen, I would feel like I had to cook or buy food, make sure I was in condition for focusing, creating, drawing, etc. And when I was finally ready to have a nice session of work, I would usually be struck with headaches or sleepiness and that would ruin the whole thing. The day would end (my routine was so messed up that it was hard to count the days that were passing and I couldn't predict when my body would tell me "hey bro you're tired as hell at 2 pm, you should sleep and lose the next 10 hours or so"...) That would start a stupid cycle and ugh... I was getting upset with myself.
Now my sleep schedule is more on control and I'm feeling more energetic, I also found an easier way to have food ready and get rid of that starvation feeling that used to stick to my mind every couple hours.
I also have these moments where I keep wondering what I should do in art. Like what's the best method for me to work with, what's the best theme for me to draw, what am I liking at the moment in artworks I see or what I would enjoy drawing... What I should do to improve, if any changes should be made, etc. I always end up in this confusion state where I just remind myself that I have an ongoing comic that needs to be finished first of fall, even if I have other stories waiting to be made, that they should wait patiently. It ends up becoming a daily experience of self-induced stress that I try to avoid at all cost, but everything reminds of it.
I could say that 2016 wasn't a good year for Zeta-Haru, I feel like I could have done much more like last year, but at the same time I could say that 2016 was one of the best years for Carlos, the guy behind all of that, the part of me that isn't related to art or the internet at all. I feel like I evolved from all the extra responsabilities, learned from my mistakes, and invested more time in my real life than the online (Now that I think of, that could explain the distance I've been feeling about the interaction, and the decreased desire at making art).
At the same time it's refreshing to meet again another part of me that I was forgotten back in 2012, before my intensive art training and new life goals. It's good to be reminded that life is more than what I was used to.
I ended up writing more than I expected haha, but I think that's it for now, I look foward for the next journal and for making new comic pages ^^
While I'm not working on full colored art myself, I enjoy helping and seeing him work on these pieces because it reminds me of the time I only made pinup arts x3 You should totally +watch him, it's a great way to keep having those pinup arts while I'm working at comics ;w; https://inkbunny.net/mytigertail
Glad to see and update from you and that things have improved. As always, looking forward to seeing whatever you have next in the works as your time allows. :3 *hugs*
Glad to see and update from you and that things have improved. As always, looking forward to seeing
