Um.. Where do I start..
Due to recent events. I will be taking a hiatus from FA, most likely f-list as well and quite possibly skype. These events have left me jaded.. And broken.. I feel as if I can never hold anything I care about close to me, it all gets taken away. Whether by accident, force, or my own damn mistakes. This time, my mistake cost me someone else I care about.. On top of that..
My father was taken off the medication called dobutamine. A heart medication. He can no longer swallow and his blood pressure is 88/42. What i've heard, this isn't good. Thinking on this, what happened and my past, I noticed the cycle of me losing everything.. My friends, my family, my loved ones. Everything gets taken away from me.. It has officially driven me to the point of having no more hope.. I feel pinned, scarred and helpless.. And especially, just so tired. I know it sounds like i'm whining, but.. I've been trying to stay strong for so long.. I feel like it has all been for nothing..
My apologies to those who got involved with what happened.. I am sorry Eric for always being a burden. A high possibility of vanishing for a while once my dad passes. Other than work, I may not be too talkative for a while.. I'm sorry..
I can no longer be strong.. I can hardly stop myself from crying... I feel lost..
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23 Apr 2015 23:25 CEST
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