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Naki

I wish I didn't care so much

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This is something that's been bouncing around in my head a bit lately. Especially after watching the video it was originally from and remembering it. I just wish I didn't care as much as I do about a lot of things.

I wish I could go through work every day and just deal with all of the idiots, smile at them and keep going on. Along with the idiots I work with and not care if they don't do something right or leave me with a bunch of work because they can't do it themselves. The sad part is I believe I could make it ahead a lot easier if I was like that. Because that's how it always tends to work. Along with if you kiss ass all the time. But I just can't do that or be like that. Because a lot of times there's no reason as to why some of these people act the way they do and some of them should never have animals in the first place. Along with I have to care because I can't just let some of these animals die or get sold to people without getting the proper care. That way they can live a long and happy life. So I have to shoulder these burdens even if no one else cares and I still get treated like an idiot.

I also wish I didn't care as much as I do about the people I've met. More specifically the friends I have and have had. I've never been a people person to begin with. And especially when it comes to making friends it's never been something easy for me. Though that whole thing have gotten drastically worse in some way or another over the past years. To the point that I've just grown quiet in a lot of aspects. There's times where I want to or do come out and say how I'm feeling with someone, but at the same time it usually doesn't do anything. In part because most people can't take the truth or see it for themselves. So there's a lot of times where I just grow quit and just go away. Though to a degree I've done that with some other people as well that I've known for a good while and arn't part of the issue. In part because I've just found it easier to be alone anymore. That and I really don't have much, if any, trust to throw around anymore. There are a lot of times I wish I could just not act like that and try to be more open again, but I honestly just don't want to. I've gotten tired of finding people that are just completely unreliable or people that will up and stab me in the back with one thing or another. Hell a lot of this is in part as to why I haven't really put up much effort as far as trying to put together meets anymore. But again I've never been one to really make friends easy and I've always been socially awkward. Even a lot of times when I have my suit on. I just would feel like I don't belong or fit in. Which is also why I've stepped back a lot from the fandom as well.

I have talked about a lot of this to at least one person, though either way it didn't really solve or clear anything up for me. Though at the same time I really didn't think it would. It's either something that's going to continue, which is more than likely anymore, or it'll solve itself in some way shape or form.
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Added: 9 years, 12 months ago
 
MystBunny
9 years, 12 months ago
Is there anyone you can contact like the humane society about the problems with the animals?
Naki
9 years, 12 months ago
As far as a group like that they probably wouldn't do anything.  Mostly because they're not associated with the company.  That and there's always a group in the store adopting out cats.  I've mostly been working on typing up something I'm mailing to corporate.  That or I'll be calling their number to try and talk to someone about all of it.
MystBunny
9 years, 12 months ago
Good, good. Not sure what corporate will be willing to do either, but it's worth a shot.
Naki
9 years, 12 months ago
Yeah that's my thought on it.  Because I really don't think the district people will do anything.  In part because I've already met them before and they're complete idiots.
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