about some things and some stuff lately. I've been feeling pretty...weird about myself lately. How, even when I try some cool stuff, try to assert myself, and make myself have...presence...it just doesn't work. The reason being is because I am terribly insecure. The annoying part is that I know I don't HAVE to be this way. And she told me a way that I can fix it. I need to learn to "talk to myself".
Asking myself questions. Gain some introspective on myself. Learn about who I am. The only way to really do it is to well, take some time inside my head. The one place that I have been ALWAYS trying to avoid, just simply because any ventures there have been...less than profitable emotionally. She's suggested great places to do it when I walk up and down the street, or in the bath, or the times I need to just lie down in bed.
But I can't seem to pull it off. I end up shrinking away from myself. And I end up needing distractions such as music, vidgames and other stuff. It's time to stop. And it's time for me to learn about me. I need to talk to me. And really, I know who I need for this. (This is when you guys can start laughing at me.)
I need Maverick. So...what I intend to do, is to have a series of...well...I guess they're interviews and therapy questions. Maverick Skye will have talks with Nick Clayborne. He needs it. Because...Maverick Skye is me, and I am Nick Clayborne. But Mavy is more me than I've ever been.
So I will be typing these little interview/stories up...and posting them. You guys don't gotta read them, don't gotta be interested. But I'll do it so you guys can get some perspective on me, too. I dunno when I'll start, but I'll get to it. I'm rather interested to see how this turns out, and how much I can learn about me.