Well, I was loosing vision in an eye of mine, and it got far worse. But first of all, it recovered to a degree, but thats not the worst part. Seems I was loosing my vision due to something else, and not my brain tumor.
I've been, diagnosed with a rare auto immune disorder.
So.
I won't get into the personal details, but it was something I wasn't expecting to hear or experience. I just got out of the hospital over 200 miles away, and Im hoping Im stable with no relapses. As you can guess, it's put my mood down since I dont know if my eyesight will ever recover, or if it will make some recovery or if itll spread to the other eye.
Thankfully the insurance mentioned it would pay for it and that stupid machine I mentioned in a previous email. But now as part of some occupational therapy, I need to come up with dollars for just lame ol prescription sunglasses. NOT transitions as those are too expensive (needed by many) and I have one pair for night. But the therapist wants me to wear sunglasses in the day, but prescription ones to ease the strain on my good eye while my bad tries to adjust to vision again. They're cheaper than transitions though (which could be like $600), and that zenni has them ultra cheap, but she recommends a good optometrist. I hate to ask, but would anyone be willing to assist with this dumb thing? Just stupid, fucking sunglasses. Prescription ones no less that Id have never wanted nor never did until she said. I dont need transitions, just dumb ol bullshit sunglasses for dumb fucking therapy. Sorry, just this last week was a bit of an ordeal for me. Dont have too if you dont want, just a bit emotional, but keeping notes open to anyone. I wish I could offer sketches, and I just found 12 pages at a thrift store before the 15th and was trying to get myself into some sketches again. I'm sorry.
As you can guess though. I need some time to adjust to this news. And, it put me in some bad thoughts. Im believing this could in fact be the final nail in any asperations I have at returning to drawing as its difficult to adjust to seeing still, even if my eye recovered, its not the same as it was three weeks ago when it was normal. Then the mental stuff, which as it turned out, wasnt tumor related, but this disease related. I, dont want to talk about the auto immune disease at the moment, please dont ask for details in public. I'll maybe post more about it in the future if Im feeling up to it, just right now, I dont want to talk into detail about it.
I only wanted to give an update as I just returned and Im still adjusting to all of this so suddenly after a week in the hospital. And its gotten me, down. To say the least. I also fear this could be the end of my creative drive in general, but some more information is needed. But I'm back, and now know why my eye vision was failing, and it wasnt the eye, its a rare auto immune disease Ive been confirmed and diagnosed as having.
Thank you for reading.
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11 Mar 2026 06:43 CET
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