i talked about this in a journal a while ago. And for some reason i feel compelled to bring it up again. Hopefully this won't come across as me complaining, since that's not my intent, but i've done some introspection since then and want to express my hangup now that i understand it better.
Attentive viewers may have noticed that as much as i love drawing hetero stuff, i've *never* drawn vaginal penetration, or described it in any of my writing. If we've ever talked, my hangup has probably come up at one point or another. Basically vaginal sex does nothing for me (at best). At worst it's actively offputting and i have to distance myself if it comes up.
Don't get me wrong, i love pussy. Love eating it, touching it, love the way it looks, how wet it gets, and i love how they come in all kinds of wonderful shapes irl (especially t-dick~). i love the different ways people draw them, i love feral and anthro cookies, and especially the little slits on cubs x3
i just get a visceral negative reaction seeing them penetrated (tho for some reason fingering seems to be fine). It's weird and dumb and frustrating. For me, anal is the only way to go. A lot of folks have a strong preference for butt stuff, but don't have nearly the negative reaction to vaginal that i do.
i didn't use to have this problem. However, i think i understand now how i got this way.
i have literally been anally fixated for as long as i can remember. This is not an exaggeration. So when i first discovered porn it's what i'd seek out. My favorite kind of porn is of the written variety. Was a huge fan of literotica back in the day, and then found asstr.org, which is now defunct but contained a lot of stories w underage characters x3
However, with stories, and even visual porn, things are often tagged incorrectly. A lot of things are tagged with 'anal', and contain absolutely none of it. Or, at best, there's one tiny two sentence scene, or a single mention of fingering (during vaginal sex, ofc), or there's a single mention of the word "anus". There's nothing quite so frustrating as reading through a 30k word story, which is otherwise *extremely hot*, getting super super excited for a payoff... that never occurs. i spent an hour reading this story, and the thing that was promised is nowhere to be found. "Surprise! Your princess is in another castle."
Of course this isn't always the case, and even doesn't happen the majority of the time, but it happens a lot. Often times the single anal scene is absurdly brief compared to everything else. Often written with an obvious absence of passion or interest. There are definitely also other authors who share my fixation, but they're a minority. A lot more people despise anal than deeply love it.
So... this experience went on a long long time, and still does. It's never stopped. i started associating vaginal sex with disappointment. And, over time... that disappointment metastasized into aversion and resentment.
it sucks. i hate it. i can't possibly begin to explain how much it sucks.
i literally talk to my therapist about this. Not a joke.
and you know the worst of it? it's the isolation You ever have an experience when people are so happy around you, about something for which you have no ability to participate or partake in? It's like they're all about to take a fun rollercoaster ride but you have motion sickness, so the thought of their fun only reminds you of your own nausea. Or you're invited to a great dinner party with all your friends who are gushing about how everything is delicious, but you're allergic to everything on the menu. Or maybe you are having an amazing meal until you bite into something you find truly nasty, that everyone else thinks it's the best part. The only thing you can do is stay away. Let them have their fun while you don't. i'm sure everyone has had an experience like this at some point or another.
So it's sad when i have to leave a conversation or stream or whatever when it comes up. It's lonely.
Again, this isn't meant to be complaining, tho i suppose it kind of is. Folks should be able to enjoy what they like. But i do feel that it's worthwhile to communicate why i'm like this, and why i have the reaction that i do, now that i understand it better.
Anyway. i hope all of you are able to enjoy what you love, and can steer clear of the stuff that puts you off. Kudos to everyone who uses their tags ;3
Holy shit I'm not the only one! I'm pretty much in the same boat as you. Pussy stuff is cool: fingering, licking, sucking; essentially all kinds of foreplay. But when it comes to looking at it head on or penetration involving a phallic object, it does nothing for me.
To put it like someone did long ago, it looks like someone had an accident with an axe between their legs.
The cherry on top: I'm straight. (IRL) 🥀 For the longest while I searched solely for female anal furry content until one day I gave in and decided that dudes are fine too, because holy moly can gay artists draw supreme ass/anal. But even then, I can't do it to IRL gay content because that does nothing for me.
I really feel you on this. Makes me wanna do better to bring premium butt stuff content to the table and make this ride just as good or even better for you and the others who may be in the same predicament.
Thank you for this post.
Holy shit I'm not the only one! I'm pretty much in the same boat as you. Pussy stuff is cool: finger
there are a lot of straight folks who prefer anal-only! i've seen a lot of porn blogs to that effect, and there are a lot of onlyfans performers who are anal-only as well. There's even a term for it "no PPV" x3
it's funny that you're into gay cub stuff as well. i've actually heard that this is also the case with some folks too, it was a bit of a surprise for me when i heard about it.
How do you mean bring premium butt stuff to the table? :3
<3 ! there are a lot of straight folks who prefer anal-only! i've seen a lot of porn blogs to that
we are 3 then, I not hate it, but I not like it like before, like every young guy, I started with regular mostly vaginal porn, but once I started liking anal fun, I started to get bored of vaginal penetration in draws and in porn in general, I actually not find mmm much emotion on the fetish of vaginal penetration, I don't know if actually is because I get bored of the over-saturation of that kink actually on art/porn or only I changed my preferences because I actually still like a lot the softness, the view and the pleasure the clit causes on females, even vibrators, fingers or licking but the fact of penis drilling it, not causes much reaction on me actually, or at least not like before XD Is not like I hate it, or like I cannot draw it, but it actually is a lil boring to me XD and more if it includes impregnation or deflowering themes (2 kinks that I actually not understand and personally not like)
we are 3 then, I not hate it, but I not like it like before, like every young guy, I started with re
There's something about it being wrong and naughty that makes it all the better imo :3 The fact that it's the "wrong hole" makes it the right one for me >:3
And yea, vaginal is seen as the "default", which is frustrating. Because it's the default and just kind of expected it feels less interesting too. It's also fun that everyone has a butthole and can get fucked in the ass, even if a character has a pussy x3 i love scenes where twins are fucked side by side in the butt. If a boy's getting it in the butt and a girl's getting it in the pussy it feels asymmetric. It's fun when they are sharing the same experience >:3
i do *understand* impregnation and deflowering, since they're both about possession and control, but they're really not for me. Like, i understand why people like vore, but the fetish doesn't resonate with me. It's ironic because i love incest, and impregnation tends to be a major feature of that for other artists x3
Yea!! There's something about it being wrong and naughty that makes it all the better imo :3 The fa
to me a pussy and a penis are the same sex organ, so seeing it pentrated does nothing for me and prefer to see the clit being stimulated as well as seeing it erect, tho i don't mind penetrating it for people who like that :3 butt penetration is the only thing that does anything for me and i like that it is something everyone can do and feel good from
to me a pussy and a penis are the same sex organ, so seeing it pentrated does nothing for me and pre
pussy and penis are the same organ! They're just rearranged differently :3
i love seeing a raging hard erect clit stick out while their butthole is being stretched and filled~ (it's no wonder why i love t-dick so much)~
The fact that everyone can enjoy butt stuff makes it all the more fun imo too. But yea, irl i'll fuck pussy if someone wants it because i wanna be a good partner, and their pleasure is my priority :3
pussy and penis are the same organ! They're just rearranged differently :3 i love seeing a raging
That... actually makes complete sense to me. There are a few things that I used to like but that I have become completely disillusioned with to the point that they now repulse me, and the reason why is similarly "This thing is there in the place of the thing you were promised".
That... actually makes complete sense to me. There are a few things that I used to like but that I h
yea... i'm sure if i dig through the old stuff in my porn folder i'll find pics with impregnation and whatnot. It's weird how these things change...
The excitement/disappointment thing is what really causes problems. There was an animation i saw recently which triggered me me thinking about it and wanting to write it out. For written stuff i'll sometimes search to see if "anal" is mentioned before even starting to read. Tho i also might need to search for "anus" if the word "analysis" comes up a lot x3
Sometimes there are some hot anal scenes in stories that *don't* have the tag, and so it results in a lot of hunting around. i'm always super grateful when people actually tag "vaginal" or "vaginal_penetration" since i have them blocked. There's a very small chat group i'm in and people spoiler it for me, and the consideration makes me feel so welcomed.
yea... i'm sure if i dig through the old stuff in my porn folder i'll find pics with impregnation an
yea~ i try to be very careful with tagging since a lot of my art would be considered pretty extreme x3
but with hetero art vaginal is generally seen as the default, so it's rarely tagged. But some people do! it's also fun when i see art with a strange fetish to search for the tag and see what kinda fun stuff there is out there x3
yea~ i try to be very careful with tagging since a lot of my art would be considered pretty extreme
