You know what's the only thing keeping me going? The commissions I still owe. I'm still working on them.
But guys, I want to give up on living, I can't take it anymore. If I stop posting at some point, it's because I've killed myself or I'm living under a bridge. Don't try to give me good advice or motivational quotes; they don't work.
I know life has been hard on you as of late, but you are harder than it is. Which is why you keep on going.
Right now with my money troubles I cannot buy a commission from you as of right now but once I get things in order, I definitely will. You make some great stuff. Unfortunately my silence stems from this money problems. But keep on going without me for others. I'll be there when I am done.
Don't give up, don't walk away. You are excellent in what you do and who you are. I know life has
It's not just a matter of money or recognition as an artist. I just want to go in peace to the world of those who never wake up. I want to rest, I want to sleep, I want peace. My atemporal and aspatial peace. My adimensional peace, my sheol.
It's not just a matter of money or recognition as an artist. I just want to go in peace to the world
In my 60+ years in search for answers, I had to gather all of what is known or speculated. I will give you the case of my grandmother - the King (not Queen) of the family. This is not a transgendered thing, but how she derived family power and wielded it. In short, Grandma was the law.
But since as far as I can remember, her first major heart attack was in 1969. As you may know or guess, there was no treatment at the time and no matter what the doctors could do, it was basically a death sentence to anyone having one, and continued to be like this until the mid 1990s when treatments were found. Since this and the 5 more major heart attacks she had, and the 2 she had during her cancer treatments, she claims that she went to heaven, judged and given the tour. But then she was told that it was not her time to come and was sent back to the world of the living. Mind you she was clinically dead for longer than what charts say a brain can function without oxygen.
In studying her case intently and the cases of many others, I keep finding commonalities. 1) The Judgement, from it one goes to Heaven or Hell. 2) those who come back, work hard in trying to do good for others as they do good for themselves. 3) This is not about money, power or fame - those things would damn one into the pits of fire, brimstone and everlasting pain. 4) We are beings of energy held within a shell of flesh. We do not die, we can never die but the shell we are held in can die. Thus we continue elsewhere, Heaven, Hell, or in another shell, one's belief weighs heavily as to what happens next. 5) Be we cannot accelerate what happens with the destruction of our shells. We can only do what we are meant to do here before we cross over to there. 6) Everyone you met in life you will meet again when you cross over. Those who loved you will continue to live you whether you are in this world or the next.
This world, though full of bad and negativity, is only a step to the next one. What we do here determines where we end up there. There are many on the other side looking down at you, wanting to be proud of who you are and what you do. Thus you need to be your best for yourself and for them. This is not an excuse to cry about the world being against you. The world is against everyone! It is how you handle your negatives that makes you a better person or not. The trick is turning the negatives into positives. Not crying about how negatives are insurmountable.
You are beyond all this negativity. You are all that you can be. You can change the world around you to make it better for you and for others around you. A Great Uncle of my friend died in at around 103 years of age - and he is fond of saying "When it is your time to go, It is your time to go!" Mind you, he was a passenger on the Britannica, Lusitania and a crew member the Andrea Dora - three major ship wrecks of the last century. Thus the choice is simple - you can wallow about in pain and sorrow or you can do your best to be above and beyond that negativity. I choose the latter, even though it can be difficult at times. Life is not without its hard times.
You can get beyond this. You just need a reminder that you are better then this. Again, I know you been through some hardships in the recent past, but you continue on despite the pain it is giving you.
Whether you know it or not, you are loved here, and elsewhere. You give back that love to us in the art you do.
Oh my dear Mozzlyn... In my 60+ years in search for answers, I had to gather all of what is known o
you keep it up and keep it kool! I also got some Commissions over due and even if it was just for fun you post here I would see it none the less you have value even if you think you are failing accepting you may be is the start of actually knowing and wanting to be better and if you know you can be better then you can achieve to be it to! there is no such thing as perfection! you must learn to love how you are and know there is and always be room to improve! you got this!
you keep it up and keep it kool! I also got some Commissions over due and even if it was just for fu
i hate that you are going through this, and i know nothing i can say will help you feel better
but please dont......dont give up.....dont do that to yourself.....taking your followers out of the equation for a moment, there HAS to be something, anything that has made life worth living
i know better than probably anyone here about having a shitty life, i have made multiple attempts on my life, and each time i failed. I wear my scars because it reminds me that i am still a fighter, and that i do have people who care about me, even if they are few and far between
and i know you have far more people who care about you than i do <3
i hate that you are going through this, and i know nothing i can say will help you feel better but
Not sure I have much to add but I will say this. If you dk end up following through, just know you will be missed by us. You will be leaving more behind you than you think right now. I hope you have your affairs in order like what you plan to do with all youcharacters when or if you are not in the picture anymore.
Not sure I have much to add but I will say this. If you dk end up following through, just know you w
