Well, it's been quite some time, hasn't it?
5 months is a hell of a long time for a vacation.
Question: Where the hell have you been for the past 5 months?
Short Answer: Lots of issues coming on that I had to deal with and think about.
Long answer if you want a story: Became overwhelmed to be honest. Not specially with commissions but in general. Hand was hurt, couldn't write for a long while and a couple week vacation turned into a couple months. And truth be told, it was a intense rush of imposter syndrome and depression from not doing anything.
Initially, it felt nice to not worry and just kinda take it easy.
Part of me was happy to take a break from writing and recharge.
But the other part of me was telling me all the hard work I'd put in was all due to luck rather than hard work which lead to some intense depression added on. Not to mention, some artists I'd known for years have wiped themselves off the internet since I left and it just weighted on me. And I felt like I had cheated people out of money when that wasn't my intent at all from not working.
Of all things, I ended up getting into contact with one of the first writing groups I knew back in the early 2010s. Talked to them and they made me realize I was burnt out to hell and stressed. They suggested I extend my break and just take a breather from being online as much. Which I greatly have. Depression has calmed down and I feel more at ease now.
Life stuff has been constant but doable. And my fingers have healed up perfectly back to normal now!
I've also been trying to work on my physical health as well as my mental throughout the last couple months with mixed success lol
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Question: What about stories/my commissions?
From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry and thank you for waiting for me to return to answer this properly.
I HAVE NOT QUIT.
I've recently been writing again, trying to get back into the groove of things. I know I still owe stories and I'm going to call them by name here so they know I haven't forgotten yet.
These people, I still owe work to and will focus on getting them done. I'll contact you in DM's soon and try to keep you updated once again. If I somehow missed your, please forgive me.
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Question: What have you been up to?
Mostly working on stuff IRL, taking care of other things. I haven't written in months until about a week and a half ago so I needed to write some stuff before I start commission work again. So you might see something by the time you make it down to this part of the journal.
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Question: What's up with Discord/PM's?
I still have my discord, I just haven't logged into it in ages. It was apart of my online detox. I'll hop online THIS WEEK or early next week. I'm still in soft recovery but I will be back online soon enough.
Same with PM's I'm just trying to take things one step at a time rn.
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On a more personal note, I wanted to come back because I didn't want it all to disappear one day. It's a bit selfish to say but I do like to think a lot of people do enjoy my stories and I want to keep making stuff for them as much as I can. I might slow down here and there but I don't think I'll be stopping for as long as I can.
I'll try to keep chugging along.
