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So, I have Asperger's, according to my psychologist.

The weird, quiet, serious teenager... That was me in high school, I was the only guy who wasn't interested in flirting with a girl, I was the only one who drew, and the only one who stayed serious and focused on school work while all my classmates were having fun...
I was always so different, I learned to read at 4 years old, I preferred to watch documentaries about animals and dinosaurs on television and not cartoons, I had extensive knowledge in biology and natural sciences since I was a child, At age 5 my favorite hobbies were catching bugs, climbing trees, and drawing. I grew up and social interaction became difficult for me, even today I hate eye contact, I prefer to work alone, I listen to the strangest and most unknown music in the world, and of course... there's the issue of my furry porn drawings, something that society would see as sick.
Finally a psychologist has diagnosed me with Asperger's, although honestly I DO NOT BELIEVE I have that, because I have investigated all the characteristics of an Asperger's and I do not meet many of them. I just have some different attitudes but I don't need any help of any kind, I am able to lead a normal and productive life.
So, you know, I hate people who do terrible things and then say, "I have autism, I can't control what I do." Bitch, I have perfect control over what I do and I know how to distinguish right from wrong. And I'm sure 99% of autistics and Aspergers people in the world do too.

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nwa921game

1 week, 4 days ago

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Welcome to the club, dude.

ineeddatyifff

1 week, 4 days ago

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Well, it's called a "spectrum" for a reason.

There are the Elon Musks, the Chris-chans, the GoAnimate freaks, the "Deviant Artists", the VHS fetishists, and at the very bottom, the fully grown dudes damned to have to wear diapers, who couldn't speak if their life depended on it.
Roughly in that order from highest functioning to lowest.

Outside that spectrum, well, you got those anti-social shitsmears who were raised on nothing but fanboy and chum chum, whose mother got them a munchhausen-by-proxy "diagnosis" so they could skip the lines at Disneyland.
And also, depending on the individual, possibly also had absent parents and/or routine daycare.

The new generation of shall we say, "fauxtistics" are watching Cocomelon etc, but that's not the main point here.

The point is, I'd guess you're probably somewhere near "Elon Musk" level. I guess.

FriarsLantern

1 week, 4 days ago

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I mean, I have autism myself; I wouldn't say it's entirely impossible you have it also - based on your description.

It's not as if I'm the British equivalent of Chris Chan (despite how a select few have described me), and it's not as if most autistic people are on Chris Chan's level. I won't do the usual thing and list of famous autistics, as if to go "see, it's not impossible to achieve stuff because of the 'tism!", because admittedly I do feel it does detract somewhat from the genuine problems that the disability provides (even at the higher functioning levels).

I would say I can relate, but that's not really the full picture. Aspects of the description are relatable - but that's not really saying much (given how many neurotypical folks can relate to autistic people). What I will say is that there may be some merit to what your psychologist has said - and it's possible you're looking too much at Chris Chan and not enough at regular people.

Most autistic people know what morality is - whether they act according to good morals is a person by person case - and there is control present over what is done. Although, admittedly, I'm not wholly sure I fully understand what you meant by "I have perfect control over what I do", because it could really mean quite a lot of things...

Anyway, I'm not exactly an expert on disabilities, psychology, or really much in general, but I wouldn't discard a suggestion by a trained professional, just don't wholly go with it either. It might be worth getting a second opinion from another psychologist? I wouldn't know, I was diagnosed very young.

RobbieWallace

1 week, 1 day ago

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@ FriarsLantern

Fortunately, I'm nothing like Chris Chans. But when I said "I have perfect control over what I do," I meant something else.
You see, years ago the case of a young YouTuber who tortured and killed a cat went viral, and he recorded it all for a YouTube video, the criticism and hate started to rain on him and he was arrested, then his lawyer tried to defend him saying that the boy had autism and could not control what he did, the boy was released and justice was never done.
That upset the community, especially people with autism, because we are not cat killers. And using autism as a justification is a stupid and absurd measure.

FriarsLantern

1 week, 1 day ago

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@ RobbieWallace

Ah, I see.

I hope I never meet the cat killer, lest he be fed to my kitty.

KevinSnowpaw

1 week, 3 days ago

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Psychologist are sometimes absolutley full of shit! Like any other soft science what they do is mostly an educacated quess, its... more cplicated then that im summerizeing a LOT but it is possible they are wrong..

Hell I talk to Sigmund Freud all the time and Hes allways just sitting there scribbleing on his little pad, telling me He is just a Paranoid Delusion but he's RIGHT THERE so he is OBVIOUSLY full of it!

X3

its also possible you DO have Aspergers Syndrom, it often goes hand in hand with Savant Syndrom, and is exceptionly high functioning. Abnormal in some ways and Supirior to normal in others.

ShiftyGuy1994

1 week, 2 days ago

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Welcome to the club man lol. I also have aspergers. And also autism, A.D.D, etc. And not to mention high function anxiety. It makes doing regular things (like for example working a regular 9-5 job) hard for me to do. I'm absolutely physically capable of it (and have done it lots of times), but my anxiety I feel like emotionally makes it hard. Idk, I need a solution for my anxiety problems.

RobbieWallace

1 week, 1 day ago

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@ ShiftyGuy1994

I thought I didn't suffer from anxiety, because I don't have compulsive habits, but then I remembered some things that have happened to me in the past, for example, The barking of the neighbor's dog bothers me enormously, so much so that I played music very loudly because I simply hated the barking, Then I realized that I was the only one in my house who suffered from this because no one else was bothered by the barking, so I felt that I was exaggerating. And when I was younger, I hated eating next to my younger siblings because I couldn't stand the sounds they made when they chewed. I'm just more sensitive than the average person to annoying noises.
But regarding the everyday things of a boring life, I have no problem doing them, in fact I spend many hours a day working and that is why I have not had time to draw.

ineeddatyifff

1 week ago

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@ RobbieWallace

there's a name for that, it's called misophonia

do ASMR videos annoy the ever living crap out of you too?

tapping nails? might as well be nails against a chalkboard

i have no idea how some people find that stuff soothing

RobbieWallace

12 hrs, 40 mins ago

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@ ineeddatyifff

I am very bothered by something that I consider "uncultured music", for example, the reggaeton genre and Mexican corridos that idolize drug traffickers, when I hear that I just get in a bad mood and I have to get away, I always take refuge in the music that I like, the music rescues me from the noise that I don't want to hear.

ineeddatyifff

9 hrs, 9 mins ago

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@ RobbieWallace

Corridos... I actually really understand lol
I'd imagine it's even worse when you can actually understand the lyrics!

Only thing worse is rap! And not just the gangsta kind!

ShiftyGuy1994

6 days, 15 hrs ago

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@ RobbieWallace

Lol interesting you mentioned loud music, because one thing that actually bothers ME. When I'm around certain people at least. Because normally it doesn't, nor did it ever did in the past. So I can get where you're coming from in regards to the scenario you mentioned. Yeah certain sounds that cause anxiety. Pretty much ANYTHING loud, like any sort of emergency/fire alarms, that immediately sends my anxiety through the roof too. I'm pretty much sensitive to any loud noises lol.

And well, I definitely envy you in that regard. Because some things, again I don't know why it does (especially given it's something I NEED to do) it sends me into such a major panic. Last year, was probably one of the hardest years of my life emotionally speaking. Aside from all the physical & important loss I had to deal with, I was pretty much scared of EVERYTHING. Like literally nothing was safe from causing a panic attack. All the stuff I love, everyday activities, etc. Everything just scared me last year. This year, is MUCH better in that regard. Hopefully nothing like last year ever happens in my life again.

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