If, for some reason, you are here and are wondering where I've been — well, firstly, you're in the wrong place, because, clearly, I do not keep this site updated whatsoever.
Regardless, I have been sucked into the world of livestreaming video game content lately. And, I mean that quite literally, actually. At this point, I doing even remember how I started, I just know that I joined other livestreamers in collaborative livestreams back in February, starting my Twitch from literally nothing because I abandon Twitch a couple years ago and created this burner account some time last year. Suddenly, this burner account now has 70+ followers and is a Twitch Affiliate. Who'd've guessed? Genuinely, not me.
Oh, by the way, here's that Twitch channel: https://www.twitch.tv/PawInspector14 — I play whatever the hell I feel like wherever I feel like it, but mostly I ride off the courage livestreaming with other people gives me so I'm not by myself being an imbecile.
Yeah. PawInspector14. Imagine whatever you will for the 14; Paw Inspector has come to be a silly username I give myself in a large number of games, and now, apparently, some furry Twitch streamers know me by that, and not just as a Paw Inspector, but THE Paw Inspector. Which.. is a bit odd and I resent it wishing they'd call me Ulrich instead of Paw, but there's no going back now — literally, because I've tried, and while they called me it during one game, it was immediately forgotten afterward.
Anyway, what does that mean for my inactivity here? Simply put, I've lost all interesting in doing art. Legitimately. And that sucks, because I have been trying to draw up assets to use in my livestreams, and I've done so here and there, but as for drawing myself a new PNGTuber, or drawing my boyfriend a PNGTuber for when we livestream together, that's just too much and I can't bear to withstand the pain of drawing anymore.
Will I be uploading more artwork here? Not for the foreseeable future.
However, I still fuck around in Blender. Whenever I can, that is. For whatever... FUCKING reason... my computer or my GPU does not want to run Blender as intensely as it used to. I legitimately hate to say it because I loathe NVidia with every fiber of my being, but this AMD graphics card that is BETTER than the Nvidia one that BROKE is not cutting it with Blender. Why? Oh, we all know why. Because all of these art programs are too busy sucking Nvidia's butt with exclusive features and focusing resources on advancing their overpriced hardware's compatibility as opposed to realizing Nvidia isn't the only brand in existence and AMD is just as good as, if not better than, Nvidia graphics cards, but they choose not to be flashy and pretentious like Nvidia and don't charge the cost of your unborn child's soul just for a fancy, technologically-advanced BRICK that they ASSUME a gamer is the one buying, because why would anyone else need a decent graphics processor if not the render the hundreds of lookalike games nowadays? Who cares how hyper-realistic your game is? Maybe focus on not making it hyper-boring next time?
So, anyway, probably no art from me for a while. A long while. Until I find where all the fucks I used to give for drawing went.
Should I have written this while incredibly fucking sick and after downing two NyQuil? I don't know, probably. I just wish I'd remembered to do this before turning off my computer so I didn't have to do this on my stupid phone keyboard. Time to proofread this mess.
