To be honest, I'm not really having much fun drawing anymore. I still kind of like making characters/doing adopts, but having to take on more commissions than I can realistically handle on a regular basis just to feed myself is... draining to say the least. And contrary to popular belief, I am not a horndog, I don't have any dislike toward nsfw, but I honestly prefer sfw, or like suggestive but with no genitals or anything actually visible, I don't like being surrounded by nothing but porn all the time, but I know that's kind of the only thing that sells, so I have to keep doing it. Maybe its just because I'm pretty much ace, but idk.
Either way, I regularly just kind of want to completely vanish from the digital art scene.
Obviously, I'm not gonna do that, at least for the foreseeable future, since I still have outstanding commissions to finish and I still haven't been able to find a more 'proper' job.
But I think for now, I may switch to solely doing adoptables and YCHS, instead of any kind of commissions, and the only way to make specific requests will be through the discord server for my monthly supporters (if you'd like the link to that, just dm me for it) or maybe I'll occassionally open for simple things like chibis and pattern blocks if I need some extra money for anything.

I've been in an extremely piss-poor place mentally for way too fucking long, and I want to try and fix that, so I'm gonna try and step away from commissions to take some of my stress down.

I want to get out of debt, I want to move out of this god awful state, maybe out of this god awful country all together, but that will take more time. I'm tired of not having anyone irl, of doing things that don't make me happy. At this point I kind of just want to focus on my real life, I'm honestly sick of being online all the time.