To anyone that hasn't heard from me in a while, I apologize. I went from 2 years of turning in job applications and not getting any calls to having 3 potential employers at once. I went with the one that offered the highest pay, and it went from a baking job to a line cook job in a fast-paced, terribly disorganized restaurant. I was in overtime by the 3rd day. My shifts are usually between 10 and 19 hours, on my feet, between an oven that cranks out at 600 degrees and 4 deep fryers that are probably between 350-450F. I'm averaging about 2 hours of sleep a night. I'm all jacked up on these stupid caffeine/B12 shots that I've been mixing with Sprite and orange soda because they taste nasty, and I got off work early. Every muscle and every bone in my body aches horribly. My clothes are all dirty; I smell like I haven't showered in days (even though I have); my face itches because I haven't shaved in days. I feel like my boyfriend wants something I'm not providing for him (before AND after he got the shit beat out of him on my birthday). My heart is racing, my mind is racing, and all I want to do is crash. >_< You don't have to pay attention to this. I'm just barking at the wind because I don't wanna bitch my friends out over nothing right now; and the ones I know wouldn't hold it against me are offline. I NEED the money, and it's good to not be part of the huge mass of unemployed people, but I'm in pain and my head is more messed up than usual right now.
6 years, 6 months ago
03 Jul 2012 06:11 CEST