I guess now that classes are out for the summer, it's a decent time to do a half-year retrospective. Thankfully, this time around I get to leave out current events entirely and just talk about me.
When I originally moved into this apartment in the fall, I expected that having privacy would allow me to pick up drawing again. As it turned out, the landlord company had the wi-fi set up so that you needed to enter in TWO series of passwords in order to verify that you were a legitimate renter and not... some freeloader who drove to the top of the mountain solely for wi-fi? I dunno, it's greedy, but at any rate my scanner turned out not to be able to deal with more than a single layer of password protection... so that was out of the question. For awhile, I figured I should just give up on it and batten down the hatches to focus on classwork instead. And I did!
But sometime around January, I can't recall the exact sequence of events, I started doodling again to make myself feel better. I think I posted the results to twitter and a lot of people started cheering me on (I remember
being one of the initial supporters in particular)... so I kept doing it. I didn't want to take money for anything because I didn't feel comfortable doing so for notebook drawings I felt were far less polished than my usual content... but at the same time, not having to go through the two extra steps of "redraw EVERYTHING on printer paper with a minimum of erasing, then spend hours agonizing over cleaning the scanned picture online because all the smudges get picked up and amplified anyway" actually made drawing feel... fun again. And without all the genuinely worst parts of the process, I could make stuff a lot faster too. It was hit and miss for sure, but I did come up with some that I really liked, and ideas that I thought were super fun and sexy even if the final results weren't perfect. I managed to find my mojo again, and I passed 2000 followers very recently too!
So if you haven't been following my twitter to catch any of these, you're really missing out. I post lots of pics of flowers and waterfalls and things from time to time, too. I don't get as many replies or comments as I'd like, so if you enjoy my stuff, please don't hesitate to do so. xD
The good news is that in the fall I'm moving into a duplex, so the problem with this particular apartment's wi-fi SHOULD be resolved and I SHOULD have a usable scanner again soon... hopefully. I dunno if I can say for sure, given how sure I was LAST fall, but... I wanna be optimistic, at least. My goal might be to do enough traditional commissions to subsidize the purchase of a tablet that has a built-in screen... and then I can just skip all of this for good moving forward, I guess.
In... less happy news... this morning Norithics informed his patrons that his patreon page was getting shut down. Venting aside, it's really incredibly disheartening to hear. I feel honestly kind of unmoored by the news. His server was pretty much one of only two that I felt comfortable being genuinely open in, and of the two it was the one that was actually busy so I could enjoy holding conversations if I wanted to jump in about porn and stuff. More importantly, any of the alternatives for supporting his uploads are pretty unworkable for me. I don't want subscribestar to have my personal info in relation to my furry fetishry and getting a prepaid card solely for that website is stupid as hell and a bother I don't want or have the spoons to deal with. I dunno how the situation's gonna be resolved, since it only just started happening last night... I guess I'll take it as it comes.
I know the mood in this journal is like a 180-degree tonal whiplash, haha. I can't really help it. Overall, things have been decent, but like... man, what a bummer of a development. I'm feeling a bit sad and introspective at the moment, so I might just post a picture or two to help myself feel better, I don't know.
