i never put much faith/interest/energy into this account, being it was SO limited in what i COULD post. i'm glad folks likes what i did, but my catalogue is so much bigger on FA or SO... this being said the past several years have not been kind. i've seen and experienced shit on a truly epic scale of fucked up. my damn computers keep dying and i've gotten tired of shuffling salvaged data around and reinstalling FUCKING EVERYTHING. so i don't even have a word processor application atm.
the second thing is my health is not good atm. i've had an injured limb since i was like 12... so 30 years of favoring one leg trashes your hip and back... my one foot is partly numb/slow to respond all the time now and it's slowly moving up my leg... last time i REALLY overdid it my leg ended up paralysed below the knee for about an hour, and it's just getting progressively worse... there's also an illness i've had for a while, i won't bore you, it's something 95% of people get and don't even notice they've had it. 5% of people present w complications. half of THAT 5% end up with a form of benign but highly aggressive, very metastatic tumor growth. the other half end up with malignant cancerous lesions. i've been under treatment, but it's been sporadic the past year. that leads me to my next point...
in the past less than 16 months i have had my ersatz boyfriend/fiance die in a very fucked up accidental way and he wasn't even 36, found out another intimate friend i had some while ago committed suicide and he wasn't even as old as my SO. last year april my father also died of a long, drawn-out illness so i was abruptly thrown into being HoH and doing fucking EVERYTHING as my already disabled mother completely shut down. then just after new years this year (2020) she ended up in hospital and long story short after 3 weeks, died as well... so i am currently alone in a big, empty house with nothing to do and no idea what to do now or what to do with myself as despite needing one myself i had become carer to both my parents. i have no family left that i would trust with a cup of water and lots of assets, thankfully, but i've been so fucked up it's not even funny.
this being said TFN it's probably best to consider this account on hiatus if not... i don't want to say abandoned, but near-extinct... i'm not gonna touch anything, but don't expect anything new, don't expect me to respond to you in any meaningful way on here. i apologize, but this is just how it has to be till i can either find myself again or kick-start a fresh regeneration.
if you wanna talk to me, please feel free to reach out to me on one of the other sites, or my messengers.
i have skype; Korrado Xan
i have telegram; Korrado Xan
i have discord; KorradoXan#0972
See what i did there? i'm tryin to make it easy on ya...
let's not say "good-bye", let's say "keep an eye out for me.".
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