Self-Discoveries, Reconnecting – AnthroCon 2018

by sirkain

It's a lengthy one, just fair warning.

AnthroCon. The con I first went to back in 1999 and wanted to always go back to forever it seemed like.... Dies off by 2012 to where last one I cared to really try to make was 2014. It changed location 3 times since 1999 and when the Adams Mark years for the con were my favorites it made it hard for me to enjoy where it is now. The size of the con also got to where seemed hard to find friends and logistics of 4+ hotels folks stayed in to hunt was also adding to the charm killer. This year stuff worked out to where my best friend and business partner

rassah and his mate

kuddlkat were going to go and offered me to crash with them and they cover it (I am basically totally broke as of this journal), and another good friend

zakrhyno offered to buy me a train ticket up and back so I could afford to get there. Just leaving food as my thing to mostly sort out. Well, why not? Money from out first house we sold was going to come in after con was over for me to live off of for a few months and couldn't do any real work for the business until week con was over. So decided to go.

And I am very glad I did, even if being the first convention in the 19 years been going to them I couldn't afford to cover it myself. AnthroCon has changed a fair bit in a good way to me since 2014. I have also changed a fair bit mentally since then and still working to correct and fix myself. The “elevators from hell” the Westin has been known to have for many years to the con goers has improved a lot since they put the computer controlled ones in. the line may look as long, but it flows MUCH faster and efficiently. The city as a whole feels even more accepting of us furries being there. And while I didn't find everyone I wanted to at the con, with just not stressing so hard about it I found most with little to no effort. Even with 8000 or so attending this con. Also found a few groups I like to hang with from west coast cons now are at this one past couple years including the inflatable/pool-toy crew. Hanged with the most of the nights past couple days of the con. So that alone has made me want to come back next year. Also got to meet

katthefoxtaur and their mate

xxpuppyrawrsxx which was cool and ow learned I got another car nut to hang with. Ran into some old friends like

tazel,

soba,

whitetail,

artslave,

lodoss-12,

whiteclaw and his mate, met new ones like

meanbeard,

espressoskoonk,

foxloverh to name a few. Got no art as had no money for it (also didn't seem to recognize much ANYONE in the dealers room or artist alley... which is weird. Just like 4 or 5 folks), but I did buy some Asexual pride/Ace pride buttons now that I know where I stand and proud/willing to show that.

As for the Asexuality pride stuff lately? Well if haven't seen

, will explain most of this talk. Going from thinking I was bisexual but broken sexually to now knowing I'm asexual or 'Ace' and learning a lot I hanged with online in the pool-toy/inflatable community seem to be ace and others seeing my post contemplating if that's a better fit for them..., just has been quite an experience. Even the speaker at the inanimate TF panel I went to spontaneously with the pool-toy crew said they were Ace. Has me wondering what the ratio of asexual to “everything else but asexual” exist in the plush, pool-toy or inanimate TF circles in general is. If any group seems to have a high amount of them compared to others and if so why they go that direction... The speaker said one reason some go to the inanimate stuff like being TF'd into a plush or pool-toy is to escape social anxiety with interacting with people, affection issues, or to escape conditions they have (like for me an example would be the diabetes). Stuff I could definitely relate to and struggle with. Will later email/PM that speaker about that and see what research he or any have done on that since seems like the Asexuality pride/definitions are fairly recent (at least to me).

In closing while been stressed and worried and scared about my current situations and future with being totally, utterly broke and feeling the “do I pay off this lat credit card bill or pay to have electricity?” kind of decisions... AnthroCon was a good distraction from it and the random discovery of the asexuality fitting me helped a lot on that too. Was able to shove away a lot of the stress and esteem issues to come back ready to face everything full force again and keep on advancing. The business is doing well with us having over 7 properties now after selling our first one we got in January. Wont have to struggle like this for much longer. I am very grateful and humble for the good friends I have local and far away, I tell you what. I wouldn't be here without them.

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