Hi all,
So I felt it about time to explain the reasons behind my fairly long absence, especially since I foolishly claimed in the description of A Fish Out of Water's Chapter 3 that I could feasibly get Chapter 4 done in a day (that's taught me never to promise or claim anything with regards to my upload schedule xD!). You might think it's due to a lack of time, but that's not strictly true; whilst I wait to hear back from an employer about whether or not the Summer Job position I applied for is still available, I do still have a considerable amount of free time on my hands during a day.
So why is it? Well, with my art, I've slipped into that infuriating phrase where I can't seem to be getting any better, particularly with regards to drawing muzzles, and certain aspects of bodily anatomy (with the neck and shoulders being my biggest pet-peeve); I see vastly superior artists on twitter and Furry Art sites, and my brain goes "it's no use; you'll never be anywhere near as good as them, so why bother?" My motivation for drawing really is a rollercoaster, and it's one of which I have no control over its movement. Writing, on the other hand, is still something I am keen to pursue; Chapter 4 of A Fish out of Water is proving to be longer than I originally anticipated, however, and when I do have the time to write, my brain then says "shouldn't you be doing something that's more conducive to your academic career and future life, like researching for your Dissertation or searching for more Summer Job opportunities?"
It's a difficult one, this, and it sure isn't helped by my steadily nabbing desire to find a partner; given my ambiverted nature, I can manage (and somewhat enjoy) being on my own, but I think writing A Fish out of Water has opened my eyes to the adventures and possibilities one can enjoy with a partner, and another caring, mature person in my life is something I'm very keen to acquire.
So to summarise, all I can say at this stage is that I have absolutely no idea when any of my creative outputs will be released; frustrating, I know, but that's exactly why I've never taken commissions from anyone xD! Sorry to those who are still waiting for my next upload; it will happen, trust me.
Anyways, I suppose I should end with something more positive, so I'll say I'm looking forward to travelling up to Wales in a few days to spend a weekend with one of my best friends; it'll be a nice break that may help me internally.
Bye for now,
MuddyMonkey
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11 Aug 2017 21:42 CEST
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