You know what, fuck it. I didn't ask for this and it's becoming a recurring issue. So now that I've wasted two or three years on it I finally have an answer for every 'friend' who has ever said "You need to change to be a part of my life."
It is: "Okay. Bye."
Seriously. I do not want friends who change me, I want friends who accept me. I thought that friendship was all about two people having a commonground and accepting each others' faults to enjoy each other's company in that common interest. Since coming to FA, for some odd reason, that is being given to me as a completely wrong assumption.
Apparently I make a lot of assumptions, for that matter. I'm stubborn, I'm too open, I jump to conclusions and I have a problem with friends disregarding my emotions. Boo hoo. I'm 22-motherfucking-years old and I didn't waste the 17 years before I came to this fandom arguing with my friends over that shit. I shouldn't have to now.
I'm done playing nice. I'm done letting people who find themselves in my life try to run my life. I'm trying to be nice and friendly to everyone, friend or not. If there's an issue with me, bring it to me. Don't sit on it for 7+ years or some shit and then throw it at me like a goddamn holy hand grenade. If you don't bring it to me I can't do anything about it. If i'm going to be a bad guy for not reading your mind and sucking your dick the way you would prefer, I am obviously not a person you would want as a friend in the first place. I would be the bad guy from the get-go, so get going.
Enjoy life. I have work to do.
7 years, 7 months ago
13 Nov 2011 21:25 CET