Original art by Nelson and Victor.
I have been told thousands of times to stop being negative and hard on myself. I just cannot stop. I have been bullied, abused and insulted for hoping for things for years, it likely triggered parts of my illness. My mental illness' main symptoms are low self-esteem and fear of abandonment. So I try hard to prove I can be usefull, that I can be valuable to people... but it doesn't seem to work out very well. Recently, Fiona lost her grandmother. She never told me. I felt that she thought I was not good enough a friend to help her with that. I keep feeling terrible to not being seen to be able to support her. She confirmed her later with a journal, and I have felt terrible since, with more and more dark thoughts. I just don't know how to deal with that. Part of me just think it's miscommunication, that I'm important to her, most of me thinks I just failed over and over... That just who I am, I constantly fear that I'll be replaced that I fight to keep my place in people's heart and get depressed when I feel I was kicked out. I don't know hwo to deal with all this. I don't even know if I should be writing this. I'm tired, since I haven't had a full night in nearly a week now, dog is sick and such... My head is just foggy, I did lots of typos typing this, I showered with my glasses on... I need to relax and rest....
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14 Jun 2015 14:25 CEST
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