I apologist to the person i referenced here, please people, don't seek finding who is in question here. I just can't keep suppressing this.
just an illustration of how I have been feeling recently. like living in a very small box. I always questioned if I did tell everyone of my situation early would any one have given me shelter near by. probably not. ironically a friend I let stay with me who left to another state to stay with friends, I was offered the opportunity to stay as far away as possible from their friends. I was not welcome to seek shelter there despite my two jobs both transferable to any state I choose.I cant afford a home, but I could sure afford to pay rent If I was given the same chance I gave them, but no. I even spent over a thousand dollars after they where gone to nurse and transport the pet they left behind,despite being bad talked in the process. and now I'm here debating how can I still live like this, surprised I have gone this long like this.
then there are my friends here, at least the folks who take care of me as they have in the last week, and even further in the past when things started getting bad years into the past. probably all that keeps me going right now are these people. I really should have spoken up sooner, to everyone, rather then to just the few I did tell a while ago. maybe then I would be in a better place right now, out the cold and doing art without a worry in the world like before. And now that I ask for help I ask for all the wrong kinds of help, trully a power machine that supports my living in a car is not a solution at all, a real "safe" shelter really is the true solution. going someplace where I might risk loosing everything else I have left is worse then what I'm up to now.
Really got nothing to loose by asking for help, if someone can give me some shelter would be awesome, or if someone has got an old utility trailer they got sitting around, or an old RV. I would be more then happy to live in it. I have spent the last couple days researching into RVs and loans, and it seems all too unrealistic, but very much like a real safe shelter... would be nice. but it is allot to ask for, so unrealistic to ask, but I will ask anyways.
still could use some donations towards the inverter either way...it will help the current situation, but its no solution... my paypal is firstname.lastname@example.org
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