I have been hurt ... I have been Hurt Bad ... My emotions are like a raging vortex inside me and on the outside I have to wear a smile like nothing is wrong. I'm not allowed to be angry or moody ~ The general population of the world I have to deal with don't respect the idea that I could have anything other than a positive mood and respond with comments regarding my emotions as easy to dismiss or irrelevant. They would have me believe I am never the victim but always the victimizer, that my pain is always through my own fault and never that of other despite it's obvious cause of being another. Dismissive phrases like ' you should have thought of that before ~ ' are nothing but insulting ways for a person to make me seem like I am at fault for not considering the infinite possibilities before a decision. Life may not be fair , but it's people that make it full of deceit, lies , cheating , and manipulation. I Have been Hurt ~
I needed to Do something to vent and to get my drive going to Finish the Work I have to do ~
