redchibi has to go back to neurologist today...so mades this so tries to cope with redchibi scares...hopes can get at least a few hours of sleeps before has to go...;'c
fears and phobias are not things only children can suffer from, some things your can learn to not be so afraid of with age, but some things you can't not be so afraid of.
I am deathly afraid of needles (even though i'm 21... ;c), the mention of one can make me panic, seeing one can send me into a fight or flight mode, I'll scream, I'll cry, i'll try to run or to hide, i've tried to lunge at or even attack people just so I could get away.
i've even contemplated shattering a window just to try jump out and get outside (this was at least one floor up) i've had to be held down or even sedated for a shot.
A simple shot.
redchibi nu wants to be afraid, but she is, and the fear is very real, i've had people tell me things like 'grow up' or 'you're overreacting' because of this fear, so not only am I terrified but now i'm feeling guilty, and hating myself even more for not being able to do what a lot of people, adults and kids alike, think is no big deal...
it hurts, it hurts a lot...I can't control the fact i'm so afraid, and to get mocked or even laughed at? or even cry because of how awful they're making me feel as if I'm choosing to be afraid?
don't make fun of peoples fears, it's hard enough having to cope with them, being forced tears because people can't understand that makes them feel worse...
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