. . ☽ ° ★ . ✧ ° ★ . ☼ . ★ ° ✧ . ★ ° ☾ . .In my native language, there’s a saying that would translate like this :
"Far from the eyes, close to the heart".
I think LANHAI really nailed this concept with this drawing. My sincere thanks to her for creating this beautiful moment <3______________________________________
The seventeenth month of pregnancy has come to its end…
And still no sign of your arrival…
Every single day, I feel that weight in my belly.
My baby. Growing a little more with each passing moon.
My back still aches, but it is nothing unbearable.
A strange duality now lives in me.
I am torn between the fear of never seeing my baby born and the happiness of still feeling the fruit of our love within me a little longer.
I remember, in the beginning, we were all so happy. We spent our every moment together.
The closer I got to my due date, the happier and more impatient we became.
But as time passed, despair settled in.
And with it, the hope of finally holding our baby in our arms faded…
He wants this baby, as much as I. But he feels guilty.
I know he’s desperate, far more than I do. He never lets anything show.
Yet I can feel it, Elvaël is suffering…
But deep down, we fight this sorrow in our own way.
Sometimes, the silent grows heavier. If only he could be here more often…
When he is with me, I am no longer afraid.
Together, we can endure everything. Our hearts are never far from each other.
I love him.
I love them both.
Sylfie’s Journal
33rd of Descendres, 51st Cycle of Existence
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l-a-n-h-a-i
