I chose to be happy. I chose to be with her..i chose to accept her. You were genuinely happy, I saw that glimmer in your eyes like when we were kids. And i cant stop myself from rambling when im around you...the true me. The true you.
This piece is a calling card not for myself but the other half I so love.. For her to choose to be happy..to just let me in the the damnation of her mind and psyche...I can take it. She knows I can. My arms and heart is open to her and hers alone.
Even if this is the end of the line, I want to bring myself into the chaos that she is. I am here and I am at the line. I just want you, Jia. To walk across it with me.
You are more than the void you see yourself as. You are a volatile flame, undying, unrest..I want, I will walk into you. Everything you are, everything the world hates about you. The things youve done wrong, let me be a part of it. The good part, to grow and to remember.
As much as the world tells me to leave, as many times as my mind knows its illogical to be with you...the pain in my heart outweighs everything you done. This is my choice, to be with you, to be happy.
You are my happiness. And I hope it stays true when you said that I was yours.
The game of cat and mouse, I promised to play as long as you call my name, but I lied, im getting tired and more hurt by the day as I chase after you. Im at my limit my dear..my insides are being torn to shreds as one half gravitates towards you and the other anchors myself to harsh reality. Please stay.
The fear of losing you is unknowable. And the agony it implies will be eternal, that much I figured, yet you are drifting again, dissociation and the loss of yourself. Jia, you're stepping to a place where I fear even I can no longer reach you. And that is the worst thought imaginable.
This is not what you promise me...theres still time..we always had enough time. I wont give up on us..Thats not in the cards
I waited half a decade for you
Its stupid to say but i gave her my heart. And that pedestal was mine and mine alone...for the longest time i never want to be owned. But i willingly gave it away and its something i cant take back. Shes the only person in this world that knows the rawest form of me..The one soul I love most
And thats saying alot because iv met sooooo many people. A furvie without her would be a furvie without heart and passion. The burden I want to carry
To love her unconditionally
I am a man of no religion, but Iv been praying every night, the promise to do anything and everything to keep you safe.
You will be a great mother...for someone who didnt want children for the longest time, you made my heart skip a beat when you brought up girl names. All I could do was smile and let you flood my ear with possibilities. I promise on my life and everything I have to be a great father, and the best husband I can and will be. Let us become a promise to bring them into this world. One that we already know how to grow and shelter them from.
You requested for me to outlive you, so you would never bear the pain of living in this world without me. That I accept...but at least spend the next 60 with me..a drop of time with you in the face of eternity is all I ask for.
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