So last month my recovery had nudged forward a bit more, which means another milestone in kicking my depression's butt. HOORAH~ ...and then I decided to nudge my medication dosage down a bit. I knew that there may very well be consequences, but I also knew I would never know if I can start weaning myself off my antidepressants unless I actually TRY. So I tried. And I learned that while it wasn't as bad as last year, I am still nowhere near ready to drop the dosage. So for the past few weeks everything just... came screaming to a stop. I'm talking my capability to art (which was on a very thin line at this point and thus collapsed the day after I began to try this new regiment), and mood taking a dive. And now here I am, having returned to my two-tablet-a-day routine. Of course, it takes time for the whole brain-chemical tango to restabilise- the last time I tried this it took something like three weeks. So... based on that, I am about halfway through the whole process.
Given the fact I have just posted art though means art happened, obvy, however this is more just trying to push it a bit, but only if I can. I am currently crashing apart but I am determined to post this. :'3
