I rarely discuss my personal beliefs (beyond being a leftist anarchist), certainly not my spirituality. However, I feel that I’ve kept my beliefs in privacy for far too long, and as October draws near this is the perfect time to discuss them, at sunset.
What am I?
I supposed the label neo-pagan suits me, but I feel disconnect from groups like Asatru, Celtic, Greek et cetera. I merely worship the sun, as an entity alone or through the many cultural “masks” like Ra, Inti or Amaterasu. Hell, even the Virgin Mary isn’t off-limits, since the Iberian worship of her is based on Lusitanian sun goddess worship.
I tried a couple of designators for what I am. Shaman, wizard, cleric, warlock, are all terms that explain how I do my magic, but all seem like too much RPG roles to describe an actual religion.
For now, “heliolatrist” probably describes me better.
What are your beliefs?
I fully accept that the sun is a star that will eventually die, but as it stands it represents the life and dynamism that I will invoke every day of my life.
I believe that there are two types of gods: cultural and omnipresent. Think Zeus or Odin for the former and the sun and the ocean for the latter. Gods tied to culture are weaker than those embodying natural forces; Yahweh is no exception. I like the permanence of the sun, and I try to worship it in it’s purest sense, only through cultural “masks” when the occasion calls for it.
Evil is hollistic, it exists in all things because all things are embodied by spirits. I combat it through invocation of the sun and sometimes of day (both are distinct deities, as seen in many cultures across the world). This includes human evil; words cannot injure but spells can. I guess you could call this a cosmic cope, but I have seen positive results.
The sun transcends gender, being personified as male or female across the world’s cultures. I see this in line with my status as non-binary, allowing me to embody the sun and magic much more efficiently.
Practises
I mostly just summon the sun to make positive results in my life; millage my vary, but I’ve seen positive uses. Sometimes invocation is not enough and I draw my own blood, usually from already existing wounds or melanomas (hey, getting rid of cancer and honouring the sun at the same time is what I call efficiency). I used to offer gifts like seashells, incense or precious metals, but I feel like I am at a point in my life where those aren’t needed anymore. My connection is that strong, to the point I’ve turned cloudy days into sunny ones.
Just magical invocation, with some blood for special occasions.
A trick I was taught by a more experienced witch was to fill a cup of water and let it sit under my bed while I slumber so all negative energy is sapped from my body. I use two cups just in case.
Conclusions
There is still a lot regarding my practises and beliefs, but I feel like I’ve revealed too much today.
Go in peace
