The previous posts in this series have all been mostly about shit in the past but... We're not in the past anymore. And as much as people's experiences vary... Idk if growing up here if people are the same as they used to be back in my day.
It's not like I left the country and have been gone a while but I've been pretty isolated for quite a bit. I wanna blame the pandemic but I've always been socially avoidant and the pandemic just justified me being a shut in. So basically the last time I was regularly actively going outside interacting with people daily was in the middle 2010s... It's now 2025 (yeah we're OLD)
Religion aside in general socially there's this air of... And lord knows it already sounds woke but... Toxic masculinity as I've gone into a lot in the previous posts that makes the Philippines both somewhat accepting but still kinda homophobic and transphobic...
But I've been trying to go out more lately... And while there's just about as many faggots/queers running around as there usually is (like lots actually cuz the country is surprisingly very gay/queer) I've... Been noticing something I didn't really get to see before... Couples... Same amount of queer folks that trigger my gaydar but now rather than just being alone or hanging out with their girl friends and such... I'm seeing couples now... Out and about... Maybe they're not getting too touchy or holding hands much.... But they're all CLEARLY on dates... Also both acting super fruity
And ... I should .... I should be happy for them that these guys feel safe enough to just hang out n such but... Part of me inside feels... Almost sad...
Makes me wondering what all the posturing is for... All that trying to go along with Fratboy bullshit all the other boys were doing... All that religious posturing... Calling myself bi for friends outta convenience... And god forbid the fact that in college I basically gave up on trying to even find a top in this country to date... ... ...this is good tho honestly I guess... As much as it seems like the country never changes... It... DOES tho surprisingly
