I realised that i'd never actually shared references of my new fursona, Tekki -- oops. Well here ya go, since i'm too tired to make new drawings lately, here's what I could put together in a very sane format.,
I designed them because i got reallly really into VRChat, and eventually realised that you can just, make your avatar in VRC and have it be whatever you want and i went mad with power for a month while i learned 3D modelling, and i've been slowly refining them ever since. They're perfect, there has never been a better avi.
I can't stress what a boon VRC has been for me over the last year or so. I find making friends really difficult, and I've never really gotten into an online community before, so after kinda losing contact with my IRL friends in 2020, i've been a major loner.
Honestly even in furry communities and the TF community I have always felt like an outsider, and i still really feel that way. I remember ShifterCon last year was a really bad experience for me in that way. Not criticising the organisation, it was a very well put together TF con-- rather i felt like I wasted the experience and just didn't get to meet anyone. I'm so scared of sharing the things i like, that i was anxious and embarrassed to engage w/ people, even when I know everyone there has a shared mutual love of TF and were open about it -- every post I saw about how ppl had met so many others and had a great time just made me feel worse and worse. The whole experience made me spiral pretty bad. There's also been the odd time when a cool artist has reached out to me a long time ago, because they also think I Am Also A Cool Artist, and i've just felt like too much of an obligation to respond to an obvious attempt to be friends -- No, i'll tell myself, They Have The Wrong Person. They Don't Know That I'm Actually Boring. I hate thinking on those times 'cause it feels like a door closing because of my fear.
AHHHHHH, But anyways I've always been able to go back to my usual VRC communities and have a great time. I've met a lot of friends that way, even though i'm fairly confident that (almost) none of them know what TF is and i'm not gonna be the one to tell em O_O This is the thing, I really am just very embarrassed to participate I think... But of course, The solution is obvious. I Must Become More Cringe.
Oh yeah, and there's the reason that I forced myself to make this post, i'm gonna be a Furality (!) Which is a VRC con of sorts for furries in general -- I'm gonna be at as many meetups as I can drag myself to, and which aren't at an unreasonable time in BST (the trans/nb meetup is at frigggin 4AM!!) So i dunno if you see me about, dropkick me.
![The Way "Back Home" (1) [TF/TG/AR Aftermath]](https://sf.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/5633/5633421_ZeakTeal2_0-5_noncustom.jpg "The Way \"Back Home\" (1) [TF/TG/AR Aftermath]")