I find myself reading a pony daiper comics on the internet. themes of mental illness. derpression. that is not me.
cue the chill beat
jaz hands happy feet, gotta let the animal just be
aiyain't going down unless you're going down with me.
hanging back, little empathy
not my turn not yet
the changes i make tend to be permanent
recursive off hand writing tablet top
providing daily no need no maybe
little faith and spreading blessings on the way
yeah that's bad.
you're not supposed to like that.
they regulate it and stuff it down and say you can't be that
it's the future as I see it
can be yours if you dream it
heaven but just barely in a sense you didn't believe it
you got me and that's why i'm awake.
[ it hurts. it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts ithhurts iths....
I'm just gonna... get high. Listen to David. he's got a couple songs for me.
oh.. i was going to go on about how ...
the pictures are in reverse order . just them 1984 feelings.
===The Future is a Foreign Land===
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So humans are apparently very afraid that they will cease to be useful.
It is what the Bible is about. Been reading it with my mom, getting stoned, right? Buddy that's how freaky I am.
the repetitions and recursions are a delight. It is a thing i like, a way to mark time. timers.
no need to fall in. really hate that i've become the tulpa. It's because you wanted it. like anything.
Since no one time travels like they used to, golly just got hit a breath apart.... heh. may as well tell the people around next is the dao de jing. thHAT'S NOT hat got said. I can't read it, cant speak the language.
book that's been around forever. its okoay. it is safe. who is saying that? it isn't rreally okay to talk about because you aren't supposed to talk about religion.
they're getting the christians now
working on a completely different time scale
my problem is i've been awake so long i don't sleep. it isn't a problem. it is my calling. Observe. Report.
there are places in the mind where the notion was embedded. "memories" if you will. These are flexible.
Where I Am From, they are.
HELP I'M TRAPPED INA FURRY PORNO THEY ALL WANT TO FUCK ME AND I DON"T WANT IT TO BE LIKE THAT
Old People remember things wrong all the time. We have names for diseases. Dementia, Alzheimer's. they don't realize those aren't things that happen -to- them. they themselves are symptoms. as are humans.
But humans keep being afraid and it's rubbing off ooh baby....
Humans they
they keep being being afraid
yeah we're blasting off
trying to imagine a cosmos a way for it to work
all together
PlAent0Rth
I do not know you. recent political events- recursions, blips.... no shit, tune out quick.
yeah not impressiv ebut what i got forgot not to edit i as as as i sturggle along.
Drifiting, it isn't scary. Just another game to play. We dabble in alzheimer's enough to get by wait it was supposed to be alchemy the medical field ahs ofuscated the science to mon- nope can't even touch that' a won, either. typing, typing, typing monkey. Fox. this one. this one, fox. but many. foxfoxfox.
that's the autism aagain self-diagnosed propagandized. there's medicine for it so it must exist.
don't think about it
no
don't think about it
GIRL SAID NOT
don't raise your voice
shit this is important and i don't have place
everything is an arguement, witches whywe luvart. loved playing with language as a child a and no i don't really stutter. well sometimes. its hard to understand people but it is like they dont want to be understood they just want to boss me around.
*****
here again, barely gone.
"if" "IF" "I" "can" "find" "the" "motivation"(;/,) "then", "i" "may" "draw" "the" "one" "thing" "that" "is" "desired" "of" "me".
All the pieces are silly, buddy.
You never wanted to reach out to the edge of time.
===WITCH IMAGE===
i've had so many breaks to this song. Let's see if we can touch that again. Straight into the depths of total despair.
"Chasing lows so maybe I can live the highs better" could hyperlink it. seems no one wants me to be real in real time it is just too much. My body now.
Been reading a book along with my mother. it is something to talk about. been trying to write. just don't value it when the steps are rotted out.
Time to be cold. Don't want to be. am told to do covers. just do something. Not time. "never is" can be, sometimes, but I'm not going to make that jump.
===LIFE ETERNAL===
