I am known to be a very shy and nervous person. It's no challenge at all to startle me. Based on that, one would be forgiven for thinking that I'm content with this, however in reality it's something based on a lot of experiences from my past, and it is not at all something that I'm proud of. Most likely it was a defensive mechanism to not be yelled at, or avoid harm.
Despite all that, deep within me lies a desire to be powerful, strong and dominant... This is something that I always was hesitant to show. I deemed it to be "my bad side". Something that was to be hidden away, as to not ruin the squeaky clean image that people had of me.
Recently I've come to realize that this desire for myself to be viewed as innocent and fragile, was nothing but a bad habit from my childhood, which served to protect me from harm. It has no practical use in my adulthood, and all it does is make it harder for me to interact with people.
I wish to work on myself to combat these old tendencies, and to do so, I'll start by going into the most basic realm to express oneself: Art. This is the place where one can do almost anything, but even here I denied myself the permission to fool around. This is something that needs to change, and so I present a different kind of image of my fursona: As a tough banchou-type, who knows what he has, and makes good use of it on others.
Right now my graphic tablet is broken, so I couldn't ink it, plus I'm very busy anyway, so this will have to do for a first art-piece of this sort, but it's sure not to be the last.
