Hey guys. Back for a little while. Finally got to draw something that I loved, and something that I felt represented how I felt. I feel a bit better now. My dad took me to a psychiatrist today. We figured out that it wasn't depression, just really bad burnout. I figured out just now that I've been doing the work of 5 people all this time. I've been mad busy with my own animations, looking into how to showcase our animations in game without programmers help, helping out the editing team check and remember things, helping out the compositing lead figure their stuff out, and also doing other animators jobs. Yeah, no wonder I feel tired mentally. My brain is just filled to the brim with things that aren't my responsibility. I guess it was my fault, I didn't think things would get this bad. It's just hard to catch myself doing these things. And at the moment I'm only thinking "I'm just helping solve one more problem", but those problems accumulate into too many problems and that slowly eats away at my brain. And maybe that's why I was going full mental breakdown at the end of the week.
I guess my new psychiatrist described it the best, you feel like living each day already feels like you're living the next day but the day isn't over yet. And 1 week feels like 2 weeks, and 1 month feels like 2 months. And so the work feels never ending. I've been advised to exercise, socialize and have a good time overall. So there's that. Other than that yeah I hope I can come back more often, but I gotta stop worrying about everything first.
That's a great advice. Unless you tried exercising, you have no idea how well it mends and all kinds of psychological issues, especially anxiety. You don't even need a gym either, just a couple square meters of free space in your room (and some willpower).
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