I thought some more over my problems with my art and decided to hype myself up instead.
Why am I so dead set to compare myself to one singular artist? Obsessing for hours and days over his art and analyzing every bit of it. He knows how to pick pretty colors, but his lines aren't always perfect. He makes mistakes too. I can draw what he can't. He might have more experience accumulated in less time, but I've been refining my art for years already. Everyone works at their own pace. There are thousands of artists, each with their own art style. Mine is fine the way it is.
Changes are okay, I'm modifying it to make it enjoyable to draw for myself. They don't mean I'm regressing, I'm just going through a phase where I experiment to see what fits me best. And that's perfectly okay. It doesn't have to be perfect yet. I'm at peace with my art.
I'm an artist raised by the internet, I can't compare myself to my gf who went to art school and knows all the basics but can't draw quick and confident like me. We each have our strengths and weaknesses. My art is bright and colorful and has some effects applied and that's valid. Others use tons of filters to get their colors, I learned to pick those colors directly (...mostly). My art style is thick lineart and colorful highlights. I'm proud of how far I've come.
