It has been a rough few weeks for me. The fandom has been a place that does good comforting me, but even then, I still get humiliated and embarrassed here too. And I'm gonna tell you right now. I don't like being told what to do. And I don't need to be embarrassed by your "consent" rules. That's one thing that drives me into a whole new level of frustration. Being told I don't have consent. I draw for the people. And I also try to win back the respect of some people, but even despite that, it doesn't work. I was humiliated years ago. But now, I think it's time for me to show that different side of me. Sometimes you got to learn you can't always be nice. And now, I'm done being nice, except for a few people that I like. I lost my happiness years ago. And now, when I get embarrassed, I have to start standing up to people. And if that does happen, I will stand up to you viciously. And I'm already anticipating people going to embarrass me again. And who knows, I might get suspended. Add world events and my family taking a mental toll on me and well, you know why. Unlike most people here, And no, I'm not leaving the fandom. I will fight for something. I don't need to be humiliated and embarrassed. It's time to fight.
