So um. Okay so this is actually a bit of a small piece for myself as a vent. I've discovered there is a 50% chance of being infertile so, I won't be able to have my own children due to my medical. It's - it's not something i really talk about to a lot of people, and while I'm still in the process of being tested, they're worried everything else might kill my ability to have a child safely, and I only have like, 3 years left to do so if I want to have a child without a higher risk.
It's not fun. It's not easy. And it's not only discouraging, it's depressing t hat I can't even enjoy the one small thing that I just have always always wanted. I'm still scared due to how I was raised if I'd make a good parent, but I have someone here who I know will help, two even. So I'm just trying to get through it all.
