Not so long ago, my mother passed away, because of cancer. Most of the time I'm fine and doing great, but sometimes (especially, when spring comes and around the holidays) I miss her just so much, that it hurts. The last weeks I was in a status between feeling good, and feeling incredibly bad emotionally. And it took me some time to find out why that was. Only when I found out the reason, it started to get better.
This image is my try to show you how it felt for me. ... like nothing I did mattered anymore. ... like there was a black hole inside of he, that sucked all the colors out of my world. ... like I was falling appart and could barely hold myself together.
I think we all know those moments. It feels different for all of us, but all the same at the same time.
If you are in a kind of similar state at the moment... fear not. It will pass... someday. At least that's what I tell myself.
I will miss her, and I will cherish the paintings I did for or because of her.
And maybe these emotions just mean, that she was so very important for me.
