To be young again is sometimes my dream
An innocent child, looking lost, nothing seen
Naive, clueless, and in awe of all around
But most of all, with sincerety abound
Most of the time, it's my own little world
Maybe my fantasy that you've seen, read or heard
It stays between us strangers, like a safe little space
Save it, enjoy it, love it, you know, just in case
Because, all the rest, why do they assume and claim?
And think I'm weird, a threat, one to kill and shame?
I believe in health and safety, just like you do
Not hurting others, like you think, but would do to me too
I already worry if I'm doing everything well
A model citizen, a good cog in society's hell
Yet, it always lurks there in the back of my mind
Forcing a mask on my face like everybody I find
Since the moment you step out, it's a forced consent
Over what gets shoved to hearing, vision and scent
Everywhere you go there's that manufactured life
And everyone you meet has that depressing strife
Can't I sometimes take a break, or a pause?
What with how we're pushed on, written in to the laws
All the media, market, makeup and manners
It all sounds so lame, like repetitive answers:
Be stoic and selfish, but for the company's cause
Then become rich, and get rid of all your flaws
Be independent, yet a puny slave to their leash
And stay young please, but not like that, it's too freakish!
You should manipulate others, but keep it quiet and formal
And society will reward you, the exploiter looking normal
You should lurk behind their lives, and make them suffer in part
For a missed call, wrong word that will worry their heart
You should be the corporate leech, squeezing their function
Fucking them monthly, all in the name of consumption
Producing and spending, dangling the carrot
So you can "live well", "safe and sound", yeah alright
Tell me again, who are the ones exploiting
Controlling other lives with the robotic employment
Despite all in the world, there's still no sense of charity
Is it that strange I wanna go back to fantasy?
Don't blame me, it's harsh, I just wanna get by
Just like everyone, in this world, is made to try
Too bad you can't quit it all, even that is a crime
And in the end, it's selfish, need to think of your line
So again, I can't help, to think on my earlier youth
To a simpler time, yes, it was the innocent truth
Where personality, growth, mistakes were accepted
Nurtured, cared for, and obviously expected
But most of all, you were loved for who you were
Doesn't matter what, who, or where you were
Let me revert and go back to my own little space
And still play along your rules in place
Let me be my own age and pretend it felt
And still place limits, as you want it dealt
Let me imagine a time, a better past to visit
You maybe don't know, but it hurts like hell to miss it
Let me just, for once, feel like I belong
It's all I ask, I promise, nothing will go wrong
Let me respect your life and ask the same from you
It's the least we can do, from me to you, us two
Let me show this side to others, without judgement
You can't blame me for needing this indulgement
Don't assume I'm an evil or a cruel
Just the thought makes my heart cry with only refusal
It would break me, damage me, to no repair
I would rather quit than live with that despair
I can't lie about myself, who I am and why
All I ever wish is to heal up and say goodbye
That's all I wanna say, I hope you understand then
I hope you felt something and can look at me again
