Sitting in the shower, hurting--not least of all in the leg he'd been using for leverage--nauseous, wanting to cry. She can't, though. He's stolen that from her, too.
If you recall from an earlier description, this series is divided into thirds. This is the end of the second one. Music.
I love this whole series, it's filled with really beautiful artistry and raw emotion, but I think this piece from it is really my favorite. The expression is perfect. It conveys so much violation, fear, loneliness, and even some resignation, without having to use tears or heavy shading. The way you left a lot of empty headroom instead of a close up really is the cherry on top.
Seriously, take down the mona lisa and put this in the louvre.
I love this whole series, it's filled with really beautiful artistry and raw emotion, but I think th
I wouldn't draw nearly so strong a comparison, but I'll hardly turn down such a compliment. Thank you for your kind words and for acknowledging Braixen's utter misery, for it is complete and all-encompassing.
I wouldn't draw nearly so strong a comparison, but I'll hardly turn down such a compliment. Thank yo
I had barely seen or looked at ANY of the other drawings in this series intentionally, because they made me upset.
Both because the subject matter was VERY sad, but also a sort of STRONG feeling of art jealousy. That something could be drawn this well or evoke such heavy emotion within me. My art at the time could never be close to being THIS good. And that upset me more than even the subject matter covered by the series. But I dont like to stew in my jealousy of others, I used my STRONG desire to want to make things THIS good and put that energy into REALLY trying to learn art, and to one day create something THIS good. I had not looked back at this series for a LONG time because, it upset me to look at something so much better than anything I could achieve.
THIS drawing is what I have always secretly wanted with my art.
Its been YEARS since ive started, and im finally at a place where I can be happy and secure in my artistic ability. I still cant reach being THIS good yet, but I think I finally have the tools and skills to start comprehending how to climb for it. And so I have decided to REALLY look back at this series now, with steeled confidence, and resistance to the emotional feelings it spurs in me, to objectively look at what I want, and to take notes.
And I see the progress YOU had made while making this series. Your artstyle fluctuates alot, and that kind of flexability is something I want to learn, I get too stuck in my own head with making art be consitient, or TOO realistic, expecially across my longer term series's, my wish for a consitient art style is slowing me down, and keeping me making mistakes that I made years ago. This series goes from using black outlines to a VERY painterly style, using only a few shadowy outlines. Really culminating in THIS image. This is still beyond my ability to achieve, but now I understand, at least partially how to reach for it.
I have been denying myself the ability to learn from those I look up to for a LONG time, I wanted to do things my own way and develop my OWN style, I barely used reference, and did not understand how to use reference images. And that made getting what I wanted to be VERY difficult. Im now learning to let go of being detrimentally independent, and to look at what I want CAREFULLY and to mimic it. My own artistic quirks will shine through the copycatting eventually, and my stories will always be different.
About a year and a half ago I started my own Braixen human abuse series. My inspirations were CLEAR, but I partially denied myself the luxury of knowing this. So I struggled, drawing Braixens is hard, and I subconsciously was trying to recreate this series's greatness, but with my own story. They are similar but very much not the same, its my own thing. But if I WANT to reach for this, I need to be able to properly acknowledge my inspirations, and copy what makes it truly work. So thats what I do now, I am here to study, WHY I love this art so much, and to try my best to copy why it works. I want to copy the painterly style, your EXCELLENT use of mood painting and tones, the difference between saturations when things get dark, everything slowly becoming gray, the use of space to give distance, I want to be a better artist, I want to be YOU. And I am finally willing to let myself BECOME YOU. (not in a weird way)
Im excited for the new stories I want to tell, and im excited to try and be a sort of sucessor to your art. Its what I have ALWAYS wanted deep down, but I never let myself acknowledge it.
I want you to know that your art is AMAZING, and has INSPIRED me more than you can really know, I want people to love my art like I love yours one day, I want people to FEEL what I felt reading this series. And I think I will make it there one day, but it will take time.
You are my favorite artist, and I hope you come back one day. But if you dont, what you did make was more than enough.
I think its THIS image that inspired me TRULY. I had barely seen or looked at ANY of the other dra
