It's snowing today… again. And I wonder, is it snowing near you too? Are snowflakes melting on your soft lips, kissing them? I miss you… I miss you so much. You left me and condemned me to suffer from everlasting winter. I have all the reasons to hate you for it, but I can't help it; you are my darling, now and forever.
Oh you have no idea how much I long for your presence… I want to dance with you, kiss you, embrace you and make love with you. You are my everything. Do you share these feelings as well? Maybe you don't, maybe you do, but it doesn't change how I feel about you. I'm plagued by these feelings.
It's so cold and dark around here without you. Even my heart is frozen. And you, my darling, you are the only one who can melt it, free it from my icy ribcage. I'm sick, sick and tired of all of these sleepless nights. You are the only cure I need. So please, come and heal me.
I'm shackled to this miserable little town. I can't flee. I'm under this spell, you know. But you… you are able to come and go as you please. I wish you would take me away with you. You are the only one who can help me. But as the days passes by, I'm still alone. I wait and wait but I see no traces of you.
Do you even care about me anymore?
No, no… that's a silly thought. Of course you care. I'm sure of it. I'm positive that you had a good reason for your departure. I'm a little bit mad that you didn't tell me anything, but I trust you.
Still, it's so painful to be here without you. So, in order to stay sane, I dream about us and the life we could have. I fantasize of warm summer days and us dancing on the sea of flowers. I want to experience kissing you under the autumn rain. And when it's cold, we would lay together in bed, warming each other with our bodies. Ah, you make me feel alive… But you're not here and I'm not anyone because of it.
How many days and nights do I have to spend alone until we meet again? How long do I have to tolerate this freezing winter? How much do I have to cry because of your absence?
Are you waiting me where the spring is? But I can't come, you know that. I can't leave. I don't want my memories to shatter. Though, sometimes I do get the feeling that I should take the risk. For you, my love. After all, my life is empty and meaningless without you. Even if my memories would end up broken and forgotten, it can't be worse than a life without you. But I'm too scared. Way too scared.
Freezing winds are blowing. I hope that they are heading towards your location, so they could carry my message to you. May you feel my sorrow and loneliness. May you be aware of the cold and darkness so you can bring the warmth and light to this wretched town.
Please come back to me.
I'm waiting.
