Umm....so yeaaaaaahhh...turns out the experience I've had throughout my whole life since a young child...was really a trans one. Like, the very classic trans one of "feeling in the wrong body". I carried this all-encompassing weight on my shoulders for 30 long, hard, and miserable years. I let that deep rage, unjustness, and deep jealousy destroy my life, until there really was nothing left...but me and my deep, dark truth. It is now...come out and do this, or die...and I really don't want to die :( There's many things I enjoy about this life and want to enjoy about humanity...and I can't enjoy those things if I can't love the body I am in. I am sorry for those who do have to lose something, just because I need to have my real happiness to gain. But if you want me to suffer even longer for no reason or out of spite...then you will see no mercy from me. I spent my life in absolute agony, running from the truth...and it's simply something I can't do anymore. For anyone, or anything else, anymore. I can't give love...if I cannot love myself.
This video explains my life and well, pretty severe gender dysphoria...it's an emotional video, but the only one I'm doing about this. And this will probably be one of the only pics I even make about this...I just wanna spread the word that I am finally coming out of that heavily locked closet...and finally going to live, and be happy, for once in my life...I did make a post about it, but just in case no one sees this there, I will put it here.
Please forgive my looks in it. When you hate yourself and your body that much...you kinda want it to die, so you don't take care of it so well...but now, that can finally change.
Background belongs to ArtMama113 on DA. :) (I added more sparkles though)
