Not so Inner Child

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The rare pic of human me this time with a bit of an AR scenario for it. ^^

You know it's hard to believe how much things can change in such a short period of time. Heh. And how often that change brings you right back around to a point in your life you'd been to before. Granted for us Regressees it's a bit more literal than it is with most. I remember when I first came down with the Regression bug how nervous I was about it. Excited too though. I'd always been into age play and diapers and all that. But it was just a part of my life and it was a choice. Something me and my boyfriend Ben shared and had fun with in private. I wasn't sure if regressing was a gift or a curse. Like the universe saying "You thought you wanted this well here you go! Here it is forever!" Plus there's the fact that you never know for sure exactly how young your going to wind up getting! Some people end up as early teenagers, pre-teens, kids, toddlers, and even infants. Not sure how well I'd have handled being below a year old and only able to crawl to get anywhere. I got lucky though and stopped at about 4 or 5. Sure I have some continence issues but it's not so bad. I can manage most times with just a bit of planning.

That said I was still a pretty nervous wreck after it stopped and I left the hospital with Ben. Worried that everyone who saw me knew I was a regressee. Worried what they'd think of me. Even though I'm now sure most wouldn't have guessed or if they did wouldn't have really given it much thought. I mean I was into age play stuff and even I didn't give it much thought before it happened to me! You never do think this sort of thing is going to happen until it actually does. But with a little help from Ben I adjusted. Sure it took a lil getting used to. Clothes that used to be merely for fun were now the norm and nobody gave it a first thought to say nothing of a second. Co-ordination improved. I got used to needing erm...well lets not mince words, diapers, at night. Ok maybe more than night. I had to get used to being smaller for all the things that meant including smaller bladder. I'm usually good during the day. Usually. Drifting attention span is something I've had to get used to as well. Sure it's better than a real 4 year old's but it's still not what it used to be. Made things a bit harder when I went back to work. Heh that was a change. I was a writer for Paleontology websites and such. Did a lil specimen work. I still do some of that freelance at home but I found a new job for a Regressee website which got it's office start up right here in town. With the other regressees running around it feels a bit like being back at school. Which is what Ben calls it. Another thing to adjust to. Before I only called Ben, Daddy, in private. Now I can do it anywhere.

I guess I have really gotten used to things by now. Embraced what is and all that it offers. It's really been a lot more fun than I thought. I've made new friends in the Regressee community and learned to really play again. Come to really love all the care and affection that I get from "Daddy" now too. Heh he's really taken to the situation. Love cuddling up with him at night on the couch with a blanket and a movie on TV. Though now I don't always make it through the movie. It's nice to do all the things I wished I could have at this age. Suppose I tend to act even younger than I actually am sometimes. I have more than a few pacifiers, bottles, and sippy cups. I even bring some of the later with me from time to time even at the office. I'm not the only one. I've loosened up a lot too. I know I love going to play places and getting to romp around. It's lots of fun wither my playmates there are regressees or not. Most real kids never really notice I'm not.

But tonight is going to be a regressee night. A whole bunch of us are having a bit of a party at Play Palace and well I'm really looking forward to it. There'll be lots of games, stuff to climb on and with with, and plenty of friends. Oh and lets not forget tons of pizza and even soda! Needless to say given all the fun that's going to be had tonight I'm not even thinking about pull-ups. Nope with all this distraction I've gone full fledged diaper under these shorts. Sides it's less embarrassing to have someone see your diaper than it is to have your pull-up leak because you forgot you'd already used it once or twice and their not meant for high capacity. I can't stop thinking about all the fun. Meeting back up with friends. Heh. I wanna show them my new smart watch! I love the voice search feature on it! Even with my lil kid voice it still understands me most of the time!

"Heh excited to show off to your friends?" Benjamin asked me with a grin as he slipped his shoes on.

"Uh huh! I can't wait! Oooo I'm so excited!" I beamed finally looking away from my watch to double check my backpack.

"Well don't get too excited. I just put that diaper on ya." Ben said with a laugh in his voice.

"Hey! I'm not that bad! Most of the time. So there!" I told him with a put on pout and stuck my tongue out after confirming Spike's presence along with my changing supplies and an extra set of cloths just in case.

"Such a lil sassy boy." Ben smiled and shook his head as I slung my backpack over one shoulder.

"Hehe I got sass I got class!" I singsonged with a grin as Ben opened the front door.

"Silly you don't have class again until Monday remember?" Ben teased referring to work as class. "Now come on lets get in the car and head out. Fun and friends await."

"Uh huh! Off to Fun and off to Play!" I cheered along scampering out the door without a second thought to the crinkles I made. As I got strapped into my car seat there wasn't a worry or care in the world for me in the moment. All there was was just excitement of an evening with fun and friends. A night to let my Not So Inner Child out to really play.

Hehe. Well hope you guys liked the pic and the lil story. ^^

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