Father And Son Episode Fourteen: Sunday Healing Session
"I'm Darius Smith. I'm Twenty-five years old and I'm the coach of Lars' wrestling team. Ever since I was eight years old, my best friend has been Omar Holender...For years, we would stand side by side against the world. We would share everything from secrets to singlets. As the years passed, we got closer and closer and now, I don't think I could ever live without him in my life. I love Omar more then I love myself...and now, he'll need that love more then ever. He's about to go through an ugly divorce that's been kicked off by his wife kicking him out of his own house. His very life has been shattered and it's up to me to help him stay together! I'm so in synch with Omar, though, that I was falling apart myself. It was only with the help of my new friends James and Lars that I was able to realize that he needs me to be strong for him. We're in it together! He's my man! Even if he's too afraid to admit it, I know he loves me too, and as long as we stick together, neither of us will be without love!"
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Omar let out a groan as he woke. He sat up and rubbed his eyes as the events of yesterday flooded back into his mind. "Ugh...Fuck..."
"Morning Omar." Omar looked over into the kitchen. Darius, clad only in boxers, was making coffee. Omar couldn't help but smile. "I hope you slept well on that crappy couch."
"Yeah, actually." Omar nodded. "God, it's been so long since I got a good rest, I could sleep on a bed of nails and get some good rest without that woman staring at me all night." Omar tossed the covers off him. He had taken off his pants and shoes, but left his briefs and muscle-shirt on.
"That's good. I'm glad you were able to get some sleep Omar." Darius had a relived smile on his face. "You were starting to worry me."
Omar stepped into the kitchen to look for a coffee cup. He had been to Darius' house so frequently that it was as if he lived there. "Is there coffee already?"
"I'm just putting this on. It'll be a few minutes." Darius blushed as he looked over to Omar. Darius always loved when he could catch Omar without pants on. "So what's our plan?"
"Our plan?" Omar looked to Darius, a bit confused.
"For how your going to deal with Brandi." Darius nodded. "This is going to be a tough time and I'm going to be with you every step of the way. So what's our plan for this?"
"Thank you Darius...but I can handle this by myself." Omar blushed a bit.
"You probably can, but you don't have to." Darius gave Omar a warm smile. "Besides, your going to be staying here until further notice, so I kinda want to know what your plans are."
"Your serious about this?" Omar gave Darius a surprised look.
"Of course I am Omar!" Darius took Omar's hand in his. "We've gone through everything together, and this is no different!" Darius looked into Omar's eyes. "Your my alphamale and I'm going to be there for you through everything!"
Darius smiled and blushed a bit. "You know...The whole alphamale thing...I didn't expect you to take it so seriously for this long..."
"Well I did." Darius smiled at Omar. "You know me better then anyone. You know that I don't bow to anyone. You know that I'm the powerful leader in any relationship." Darius moved in closer to Omar. "You know that you're the one man I would ever follow....Because....I love you Omar..."
"Darius....I keep telling you I'm straight..." Omar broke his hands away from Darius'.
"Right..." Darius was about to step away when Omar grabbed him around the waist and pulled him in for a hug.
"But...you never believe me...You keep coming back to it...Keep pressing it into my mind..." Omar blushed even more. "You just keep coming at me with love..."
"Of course I do. Omar, even if you don't love me back, I'll never stop loving you. You're the only man I could ever be with." Darius' heart was beating quickly. Omar had never been this intimate with him before!
"I know..." Omar smiled down at Darius. "I never tell you this Darius...but I do love you." Omar blushed even more. "Your like a brother to me...And last night made it clear as crystal that your the number one man I can rely on." Omar's blush started to fade and his expression became more caring. "I can always turn to you...Hell, I don't even have to turn because I know that your right there by my side...That kind of dedication and love is something that even good men rarely see, let alone a horrible person like me."
"Your not horrible. Your not bad in any way Omar. I wouldn't love you if you weren't a good person!" Darius hugged Omar.
"Whatever you say Darius...But even if I were to even think of being gay, I wouldn't be a good husband for you."
Darius blushed. Had Omar really been thinking about marrying him or was it just him overthinking? "What do you mean Omar?"
"Just look at how I treated Brandi. I didn't love her. I couldn't please her. I couldn't even look her in the eye after a while. I'm terrible husband material." Omar shook his head.
"That's bullshit Omar! Your the perfect man. You just aren't attracted to her."
"But she's so sexy, though. If I'm not attracted to her, then what AM I attracted to?" Omar shook his head.
"Maybe....your attracted to me?" Darius blushed.
"You?" Omar blushed.
"Yeah...Maybe you aren't attracted to her because you already love me."
"Well..." Omar blushed even more. "I don't know...I know we've talked about it all the time. Your the one person I can talk to about stuff like this, even."
"Maybe your not really gay...but not really straight...maybe it's just me you love...."
"I...never thought about it like that. It was always gay or straight."
"You should know there's a wide spectrum of sexualities." Darius nodded. "Maybe your just...mine..."
"Just..yours?" Omar took Darius' chin in his hand. "You really think I could just love you and that's the solution to all my problems?"
"If...you want to go that way..." Darius blushed.
"Your such a naive little puppy Darius..." Omar leaned in close. "But your my little puppy..."
"O...Omar..." Darius' heart was beating faster then it had ever beaten before! They were so close...
"But..." Omar released his grip on Darius. "Even if your theory has some truth behind it, I'm still a married man. I still have to deal with this. With your help..."
"I'll with you every step of the way Omar! You can count on it!" Darius pumped his fists.
"I know..." Omar smiled widely. "And maybe after this is over...." Omar blushed. "We....could consider your theories about me...."
Darius' eyes went wide with joy. "Yes! YES! OF COURSE!"
"I'm going to take a shower. Then I guess we should call a lawyer. Thankfully, I got a prenuptial agreement set up, so I shouldn't be burned too bad."
"You actually thought this out?" Darius raised an eyebrow.
"Well yeah. I always plan for the worst." Omar smiled before stepping off down the hall, thinking. "Maybe...I knew it wasn't supposed to be in the first place...."
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Omar stepped out of the shower, shirtless but otherwise dressed. "Aah, nothing like a shower to help you clear your mind..." Omar stepped into Darius' room. "Hey Darius, I'm borrowing a shirt! I forgot to bring some with me!"
"Alright, you know where they are!."
Omar went to Darius' dresser and rooted through it for a good tee shirt. "Let's see...socks, socks, jockstrap..." Omar paused a moment, rubbing the crotch of the jockstrap before returning to his search. "Aah, here we go." Omar got a shirt out and put it on. Since Darius was smaller then him, it hugged his muscular chest. "Meh, this'll do I guess..."
"Hey Omar, come in here!" Omar walked into the living room where Darius was busy at work on a laptop. "It turns out Brandi was more prepared then you were.
"What do you mean?" Omar sat down next to Darius, looking at the screen.
"Check it out. I decided to check a few legal websites using the legal documents she had you sign to get the divorce order underway As it turns out, she had your divorce order set for at least a month or two. All the processing was done already, so she just needed your signature." Darius looked over to Omar, running his eyes up and down Omar's muscle covered chest.
"Why that son of a bitch! She had this planned out already!?" Omar growled. "And she STILL let me feel like shit about it!?"
"Well...at least that means you won't have to wait around for a hearing. It'll be in a few days according to this." Darius scratched his chin. "What I don't get is how the hell she was eve able to do something like that without your correspondence..."
Omar scoffed. "She has friends in the legal field. She probably found some loopholes or something so that she could get this out of the way early and spring it on me at the last moment." Omar sighed deeply. "Why did I even marry that broad? I don't even like her...What was I thinking?"
Darius hugged Omar. "You were thinking she was the answer to your problems, that's why you married her."
Omar gave Darius an annoyed look. "And just how do you know that was why I married her? I could have married her for any reason." Omar started to think about Omar's suggestion as he sneakily put an arm around Darius, hugging him back.
Darius looked Omar in the eye. "Probably, but I know it was that reason. And you want to know why I know?"
"Do enlighten me Doctor Darius." Omar gave Darius a sarcastic look. Without hesitation, Darius leaned up and kissed Omar on the cheek, making Omar blush brightly and get flustered. "What was that for!? Dude, what if someone saw you doing that?"
"That right there!" Darius pointed directly at Omar's face. "Your blushing, you liked it and you know it!" Darius held onto Omar's free hand. "But for as long as I've know you, you've been afraid to return any kind of love because you were afraid of being labeled as gay. And so you went to Brandi hoping to find a solution to your fears of being gay."
"Err...And how am I supposed to believe that shaky logic?" Omar tried to hide the impact of Darius' spot-on theory.
"Because..." Darius nuzzled Omar's muscular chest. "I'm your right hand man. I know everything about you...sometimes more then you do." Darius smirked. "At least think about it."
"Whatever..." Omar quickly changed the subject. "Anyway, we have to start planning for the hearing next week."
Darius rolled his eyes. "Can we do that in a few minutes?"
"Why? You don't have anything to do, do you?"
"Nope..." Darius blushed. "This is just the longest time you've let me be this close to you without having to pin you to a mat."
"Er....well...I..." Omar blushed brightly. He wanted to dump Darius off of him for bringing that up, but he enjoyed feeling Darius close to him too much to move. "Guess I just needed a hug..."
"Omar..." Darius smiled at Omar.
"I know, I know..." Omar's eyes drifted off. "I....loveyoutoo..." Omar's mind began to go over what happened. "Is he right about me and Brandi?...Was it all just to bury my problems...I don't know..." Omar tightened his grip on Darius. "All I know is...This feels good..."
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It was later that night. Darius was laying in his bed, going over all the different things he and Omar need to do when he heard something in the living room. "Wha the.." Darius looked over to his clock and saw it was midnight. "What's he doing at midnight?"
Darius walked into the living room and saw Omar, just pulling off his pants on the couch and looking at TV. "Oh, did I wake you up or something?" Omar couldn't help but smile at the sight of Darius.
"Nono. I was awake anyway..." Darius shook his head and sat down next to Omar.
"Well I can't sleep. I've got so much on my mind...." Omar kicked back on the couch, the light from the TV illuminating his body.
"I can only imagine what your thinking about..." Darius let Omar lay his feet on his lap. "But it'll all be over soon. Then you can work on getting back on with your life."
"Yeah...Hey...Darius..." Omar began to blush.
"Yeah Omar?" Darius looked over to Omar, smiling widely.
"I...kinda...." Omar hesitated. "I...need another....hug..."
Darius' eyes lit up, he crawled over to Omar and hugged him tightly. "I'll give you all the hugs you need Omar. I'm here for you..."
"I know..." Omar held Darius in his arms and they laid there on the couch for a long while. "T...thank you for being with me...I know I'm probably being a bother."
"It's no problem Omar. Your always welcome here..." Darius felt very happy in Omar's arms.
"Darius....I don't think I ever asked you this before..." Omar blushed a bit.
"Yeah?"
"What's it like....to be gay? Is it any different from being straight?" Omar blushed even brighter.
"It's all the same Omar. You see a guy you think is hot, you try to get into his pants, you live your life. Nothing special..." Darius chuckled. "But at the end of the day, it's all about finding that one man you truly love. The man you would do anything for...The man you want to live and die with...Your everything..."
"Have..you...ever found anyone like that?" Omar blushed even more.
"Yeah...I have..." Darius smiled.
"You did?" Omar's heart skipped a beat. He didn't know why, but the idea that Darius already found somone made his heart sink.
"Yeah...I'm in his arms right now..." Darius looked up into Omar's eyes. "And as long as I'm with him, neither of us will be alone..."
Omar's heart jumped again. He could have seen it coming, but hearing Darius admit that HE was that special person made him feel so happy...so wanted...He couldn't bare it. "Darius..." Omar started to tear up. "I....I don't diserve a man like you..."
"Yes you do..." Darius leaned in closer. "I love you Omar...."
"I....I...." Omar moved closer in to Darius. "I....Can't do it..." Omar stopped just short of kissing Darius. "I...I'm so confused...About Brandi...about you...about everything...I'm sorry Darius but...I can't be with you..." Omar pulled back and tightened his grip on Darius. "But..." Omar started to sob. "Please Darius...Please don't leave me...Don't leave me alone..."
"I'll never leave you Omar. You'll never be alone. Never." Darius hugged Omar tightly.
"I'm such a wreck...It's almost pathetic how far I've fallen..." Omar chuckled through his tears.
"Hey, there's no way but up now." Darius smiled warmly at Omar. "And I'm here to help you back on your feet."
"Darius...I keep telling you...you don't have to be involved in this..."
"I know, but-" Omar dragged Darius in close and kissed him on the cheek.
"Thank you...I can't stop saying that to you...not ever...thank you..." Omar hugged Darius even tighter.
"You don't need to thank me. Just being able to be with you and love you the way I do is enough."
"Well it's not enough for me." Omar rubbed Darius' arm. "But I'm so confused right now....I don't know what I could do for you...Besides...Being with you..."
"What do you mean?" Darius blushed brightly.
"No matter what, even if I never figure myself out...I'll always be here for you the same way your here for me. We'll be together forever!" Omar smiled warmly.
"We already were Omar." Darius smiled.
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"Omar is so cute...but so confused...After years and years of sexual confusion, he's finally fallen apart. It's so sad...But I'll be here for him. He clearly loves me, but he needs to learn how to love himself first. And I'll help him with that....He's right. No matter what happens, we'll be together forever!"
